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decisions, decisions

my life has changed a lot in the past few months.
to actually tell you how it’s changed?  well i can’t. lol

i am not too sure what has changed, or why suddenly it feels like i have no time to myself.

i am pretty much go-go-go until the dinner dishes are washed – which is normally well after 7.

by the time i am able to sit and chill – it’s after 8.

by then – i am just dead.  absolutely exhausted.

it also seems that that is the only window of opportunity i have to go to the gym.

right after work just doesn’t fit into my life anymore.
i have too much to do and not enough time to do it.

believe me, i’ve looked at different scenarios – and nothing seems to fit.

so i am debating whether i should quit the gym.

for the past few months all i’ve done is pay them.

i could go after 8 – but by that point i’ve checked out…i am so completely done with the day.

i can’t even imagine willingly getting on a cardio machine.

but it seems like that is my only option and one that i am not overly thrilled about.

oh – i know there’s the morning…but i can’t even get out of bed on time for work, never mind waking up at 5 to work out.
it just doesn’t work in my life.  me and the morning are not friends.
there is no point in denying that i am just not a morning person.

and so – what to do what to do?  do i just cancel the gym – or kick myself in the ass and go after 8?

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goal not achieved

at the beginning of the year i set some goals.  i would really have to look back to see what they were
and if i achieved them!
lol how bad is that?

the one i do remember was that i was going to create my own website
i even bought myself WordPress for Dummies!!!

because i am wonder woman i had just assumed i had all the time in the world
well, we are already in mid November – and it’s just not looking good!

seriously i started reading the book and i was totally getting it and ready to rock my own website
but then it started throwing out really dirty words like FTP and god knows what else…
and i got all dizzy in the brain.

i don’t think it will happen in 2011.  my life is way to crazy to sit down and “learn”
unless someone would like to teach me?
i am much better at hands on stuff.
if not – then maybe i can find some time to breathe in 2012 and do it.

sadly it’s the same thing with a gift i was kind of offered.
well..i was asked if i wanted a MAC instead of my PC
i said no thank you.  why?  cause i don’t know how to use the damn thing!!!
although it was rather sexy if i must say so myself!

so that’s my Tuesday rambles.  any techie suggestions would be more than welcome

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time

I had a conversation with someone the other day
It was ironic since the conversation we had, was a topic that has been plaguing my brain for some time.

Time.

For some reason I have noticed the passing of time as of late.
It seems like everything is flying by and I am so perplexed!  When did all this happen?
Why is the passing of time so heavy on my mind?

My niece, surely she can’t be almost 3.  Wasn’t it just yesterday I was waiting ever so patiently to meet her?

I spoke to my godmother yesterday.  Again, it can’t be 3 years that I have spoken to her can it?  I am blessed she still knows my name and recognizes my voice…but will it be that way a year from now?
we all know how quickly a year passes.

That friend…who surely I just saw not too long ago… has it really been over 6 months since I’ve seen her?

People that you thought you’d never live without – time passes and life goes on.

Hearts break, hearts ache…
And time has the miraculous ability to make them whole.

Death, sadness, tears….you do learn how to smile again.

This is the nature of time.

Where is this going?  Not too sure lol
This is what’s been on my mind lately.  How time seems to be flying at warp speed and I would like it to slow down just a little.
I mean am I not still 27?  Say it ain’t so!!

And so, the conversation I had the other day had me thinking about time even more.

A lovely lady asked me if I was afraid that I was “wasting my time”
Isn’t life for living?

She was referring to my routine.  Going to the gym, eating healthy.
Is it worth it …investing so much of your time – wasting your life like that?

Wow.
It still bothers me – that statement – wasting your life.

For over 30 years I was wasting my days – obviously not every single day of my life.
But I wasted a lot of time.
A lot of time being sad, unhealthy, stagnant.
I also spent a lot of time being happy, healthy and go, go, go.

Nothing is wasted.  Not an ounce of this precious life that I have been gifted with will go to waste.

I live the way I live…to live as long as possible.  To take as much time as I can get.

I want the odds to be in my favour.  I know you can never know when your time is up…but I sure as hell would like to do anything in my power to hang around and find out.

I have a lot of life left in me.  A lot of spunk to share.

So lady I had the conversation with – no.  my life is not wasted.
My life is rich and full of so much potential.
Eating healthy and working out will never be a waste…if anything…maybe I am slowing down time.

I am sorry that your knees hurt…and you are over weight.
I am sorry that you don’t have the energy to take a brisk walk
I am sorry that you are border line diabetic.
I am sorry that you “just can’t stop” eating cookies and chocolate.
I am sorry that you feel the need to ask me how I can eat meat…while you are digging in to your plate of fries. (wow)

I wish you understood how much more energy you would have, if you just made some different choices
I wish you knew how just some small changes…would change your world as you know it.
But that’s not for me to tell you…that’s for you to want.  That’s for you to figure out in your own time.

No…I’m not wasting my time.
You on the other hand…

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how time flies

today marks the one year anniversary of losing my resident cat, Mamma.

it doesn’t feel like a year.  not at all.

it feels like this just happened.  she’s been gone a year…and i miss her still so very much.

sometimes i swear i hear her or feel her close by.

Mamma was with me for 16 years…she lived a good life, but it’s just never long enough.

she was crazy, unpredictable, affectionately called “evil”, most people were scared to be around her…but she loved me to death.

i’m just thinking about my girl today and sending her all the love in my heart.

i love you Mamma

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i can do this can’t i?

this is the beginners guide to running.  i could do this no??
now, just what days am i able to do it? at first it looks like i don’t even need 15 minutes (remember my dream????)
i guess even on the days that i am at the gym i can do this OR maybe while i am at the gym i can do this on the treadmill?
Just a thought!

The Couch to 5k Training Plan

Week Day 1 Day 2 Day 3 Day 4 Day 5 Day 6 Day 7
1 5 min walk
2 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! 5 min walk
2 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! 5 min walk
3 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! Relax!
2 5 min walk
3 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! 5 min walk
4 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! 5 min walk
5 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! Relax!
3 5 min walk
6 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! 4 min jog
5 min walk
4 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! 5 min walk
7 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! Relax!
4 5 min walk
7 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! 5 min walk
8 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! 5 min walk
9 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! Relax!
5 5 min walk
9 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! 6 min jog
5 min walk
6 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! 5 min walk
10 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! 5 min walk
11 min jog
5 min walk
6 5 min walk
11 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! 13 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! 15 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! Relax!
7 15 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! 8 min jog
5 min walk
8 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! 16 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! 17 min jog
5 min walk
8 17 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! 18 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! 20 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! Relax!
9 20 min jog Relax! 12 min jog
5 min walk
12 min jog
Relax! 24 min jog Relax! 25 min jog
10 25 min jog Relax! 27 min jog Relax! 30 min jog Relax! Race Day!

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white flag

i know that i am pretty similar to wonder woman
actually…the similarities are endless really 🙂
but mamma, i am tired.

i realized that i was just worn out when i nearly dropped dead on Friday
i just think my body was telling me to chill right out.
and so….i shall try.

there’s just so much that needs to be done in a day
i simply don’t have the hours.  add another 3-4 hours and maybe, just maybe…we’ll be all good.

so i am trying to simplify.

i have come here for help kids.

being creative with dinner on a daily basis is just not gonna happen.
my life is much easier…less stressful when i can cook a meal that can last me 2-3 days.
that takes the pressure out of finding time to cook and eat
and will also help me to not have the desire to stray from my low carb
by the time i get home, do what needs to be done…and even think about dinner…i am famished!
all of a sudden anything carby and sinful sounds like a perfect idea.
i really don’t want to cave in to the demons in my belly.

i have a few meals that i make on a regular basis, but i don’t want to grow tired of them.
i need to switch things up.

and so i come here waving my little white flag…
admitting i just don’t know what to do anymore.
i’ve come here asking…more like…begging for my fellow low carb friends for some recipes
something i can make that will last me a couple of dinners
and isn’t all that time consuming to make.

am i asking for too much?
some simplicity in my life somewhere???
i thought i’d start with the meals and go from there.

if i don’t catch a breath sooner or later…i may just cry.
and you really don’t want to see me cry…do you?

help!!
any ideas would be greatly appreciated.
bring it!

i also just wanted to take a second…and tell the blogging world…
that i really miss my puppy.  i miss him every day…but today i miss him a ton.
6 years ago today i put my little man down.
the picture isn’t the best, but hey…when you look good…you look good.  there’s no hiding that.
i love you my little squish man.

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