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all a girl needs

is a brand new pair of sexy shoes

(my definition of sexy has changed as i have gotten older lol)

 

last May i went and got fitted for the perfect runners.

i took up running again after 20 years…and my 7 year old runners didn’t cut it

seems my body didn’t want to run as much as my brain wanted to
i had some bad shin splintsi mean crying kinda bad.

so i went and bought a beautiful pair of runners.

170 bucks later…i hit the pavement

my legs felt better…but i will still in a lot of pain.

i got to wear them twice…and then life happened.

i was in the middle of buying a house, packing…moving

all that fun stuff.

once i got settled in to the new house…
i sprained my ankle.  badly.

i gave up on the idea of running…never mind running.  i couldn’t even walk.

almost a year later…and my ankle is still not right.

anyway

once i moved….
my shoes were nowhere to be found
actually…a whole box of shoes…were missing.
somehow they got lost in the move…
just one box.
of course the box with all my most favourite shoes.
you know, the hoochie mamma shoes, work shoes
and these beautiful running shoes i just bought.

i was soooooo very sad.

for my birthday in December, a couple of my wonderful friends got me a gift card
so i could buy a pair of the shoes i lost.i was sooooo happy 🙂

4 months later…i went and purchased said shoes.

they were last years shoe…and so they were almost 50% off.

i bought my new pair of shoes for $1.70.

seriously…it can’t get better than that.

so now i have the shoes

i just need my legs to work
🙂
thank you lovely friends for the gift card!
and here are the sexy beasts
shoes

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long overdue update

as you can see, i haven’t had anything to write about in a very long time.

actually that’s a big fat lie.  i’ve had a ton to write about, but nothing losingbee related.

i am not a losing bee
i am a gaining bee
and it sucks

let me fill you in since the last post.

pull up a chair, i have a feeling this is going to be a long one.

last i wrote, i had rediscovered my love for running

and then the shin splints happened, and suddenly my love turned into horrible fear.

i would run until i was in so much pain i couldn’t handle it anymore.

i would be far from home and hardly able to walk…i don’t know how i made it home sometimes.

so i bought a pair of extremely expensive runners and insoles…and was ready to try.

i got to go for a run once or twice and my shins felt a little bit better…and then life happened.

i got super busy (and stressed) packing up the last 20 years of my life and moving.

running could wait until that was done.

somehow, during this move…i lost a box of shoes.  all fairly brand new pairs of shoes…one pair being my super expensive runners (and my wii.  where the hell did my wii go?)

granted, i didn’t know it at the time

because then this happened:

foot 2

the cider was just for show 😉

i managed to sprain my ankle.  badly.
i went to urgent care, and they sent me to emergency

they wouldn’t xray it, saying it was just a really bad sprain

fast forward to today…over 4 months later…and it still hurts and it still gets swollen and even walking a fair distance is hard.

me thinks i should go get it checked out again.

then i started taking some meds
three different kinds…

and all of these meds came with horrible side effects.

nausea, head spins, exhaustion, dry mouth, moodiness (x1000) and the worst one?
weight gain.

some may argue that moodiness was the worst side effect and my bodacious ta ta’s were the bonus

i would disagree.

then add to this the fact that i quit smoking.  it’s been 54 days, 14 hours, 59 minutes and 56 seconds (but really whose counting)

so just imagine.  moodiness and quitting smoking

i must be a JOY to be around.

and then there is that amazing cycle so many of us are familiar with.

you feel like crap, you feel like crap for gaining weight, so you eat crap food and then feel even more crappy cause you feel like crap

lather rinse repeat.

i had to go out and buy new clothes.  i am up a size.

and it makes me feel like crap.

i have entered a very new and important chapter in my life.

unhealthy isn’t an option.

so.

i started again.

for the past week, my eating has been super clean and i have been going for walks.
my ankle isn’t enjoying it at all
but maybe it will get stronger as i get stronger

and hopefully thinner

being on these meds tho…i am not sure if weight loss will happen
but it doesn’t hurt to try.

and besides…eating healthy is never a bad thing.

so that’s my news

what’s new with you?

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couch to 5k

i won’t even go into why i haven’t been here
other than i have been extremely busy with some things…and sedentary with other things

as you can imagine
i am tired of excuses.

not that i am not busy…because i am…

i’ve been struggling to find the time to go to the gym
you know, the one that is two seconds away from my home.

but the truth is…

wait for it…

i don’t like the gym.

the gym feels like a chore.
it doesn’t thrill me or excite me
it makes me dread working out.

i realized i was happiest working out at home or going for my long 5k walks

i realized i am introverted even in my work outs.
i just want to be alone.

i wanted to do something different than just walk…
i enjoy walking but i wanted to push myself more
wanted to burn more calories and feel my body burn
call me weird…but i love that feeling

so i started to run.

if you haven’t read my blog before let me fill you in on why this is a huge deal.

i stopped running many many years ago

dare i say 20?

i used to run.
all the time.

i would wake up at a god awful hour in the morning and go for a run

i loved it.

then i got hit by a car…and it was game over.

i never attempted running again, only because i have been terrified.

see, even sprinting across the street can cause my ankles to lock and make me fall flat on my face.
scary indeed

but something told me to try.

and i did.

i was completely overwhelmed…

it felt amazing, i felt amazing…

am i outta shape?  my god yes.
but not for long
and hey, i have yet to fall on my face (give it time, it’s bound to happen…and i am sure in front of a huge crowd of people, cause that’s how i roll)

i have this awesome app on my phone that tells me what to do
when to run and when to walk
i play my awesome music that makes me want to move

i am alone…in my head…
and on my way to getting fit

i can’t walk right now

i can’t get up off the couch without groaning

but it’s a good pain.
a great pain actually.

i can’t wait to get out there again.
and again.

i think i found my mojo!

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this is how i’d look

have you all seen that episode of Friends where Pheobe and Rachel decide to go running together?  Rachel stopped running with Pheobe cause Pheobe looked like she was having some kind of epileptic seizure…and then Rachel decided to run just like her! lol

it was funny…and if you have no idea what i am talking about click here.

I am certain that is what i would look like if i picked up running again – either that or end up flat on my face!!

I found this on Pinterest  – and yeah, it says it all!

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sometimes never really does mean never

my puppy is going through another growth spurt against my will.
sigh.
so with the growth spurt comes the extra visits out doors.  she is eating and drinking like a maniac – and so there have been many mad dashes to avoid messes.

so the other night – my poor baby really had to go.
i mean i had to run behind her to get her out asap.

there is about 10 feet from the pavement to the grass.  we ran down the stairs and ran across the pavement.
and that’s when it happened.

my ankle completely locked up for two consecutive steps.
it was painful and i had to stop and breathe, otherwise i am sure i would have screamed.  i don’t think my neighbours would have appreciated that after midnight.
i proceeded to limp through the walk – and woke up the same way.
today i am ok.

my point?  i always have one.

my dream to run again is just not going to happen.
and that’s ok.
it has to be ok.

to be honest i am surprised i haven’t seriously injured myself just walking.
i walk fast.  years of trying to keep up with other people with my really short legs 🙂
i don’t know how many times in a day…my ankle either locks or completely gives out.
i am telling you – i am the vision of grace.  i don’t think i have ever met anyone more clumsy on their feet than me.
if you know me in real life – you know i’m not lying!

For thanksgiving – i was wearing brand new flip flops.  my ankle completely gave out and i turned over on it with such force – i ruined my flip flops.
i loved those flip flops.

i gave up on running when i got hit by the car(s)
eventually i became ok with it.  i found other things to do to make me feel good and occupy my time.
i guess i recently got excited about the possibility of starting up again, since i’ve been making really great strides in my physical health ya know?
it just kinda bums me out.  it’s like when you tell me i can’t do something…i go outta my way to prove you are wrong.

i can’t do it this time.  all it will prove is that i am an idiot and i will probably end up being one with the sidewalk.
who wants that?

i am glad i got the nerve up to get a bike and ride it.  i am glad that i actually enjoy going to the gym.
so it’s ok.
the control freak in me will get over this eventually.
but it still does suck a bit.

the lesson i learned today?  that sometimes never, really does mean never.

c’est la vie

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give me the music

sung in the style of C&C Music Factory

everybody dance now

stuck in your head???
you’re welcome!!  lol

anywayssssss….

i need some new music for my ipod.
this from a girl who has thousands upon thousands of mp3’s on an external drive…

but i do.  i need some new fresh music….well at least new and fresh to me

currently there are three songs that get me through at the gym – well there are more than 3 songs i listen to but these 3 are my favourite.
they make me happy and pump me full of energy
but lets face it…i want more
i always want more!!!

right now i am in love with:

A Kiss With a Fist is Better than None by Florence and the Machine.
a very inappropriate song (just read the lyrics) but hey – it does the job and makes me grin.  i am not too sure what that says about me – but whatever!

Rumour Has It by Adele.  if you can sit still through this song you have a serious problem.
this song makes me deliriously happy and makes me look like an idiot while i am doing my cardio.  i don’t care.  and you know why?  i love Adele.  she makes me happy…she turns me into a crazy cardio fool.

Gonna Get Over You – Sara Bareilles.  hello – need i say more?  i could be in the most miserable mood and as soon as i hear the first note to this song…my world is all rainbows, sunshine  and kittens.  again, i look like an idiot – but i don’t care.  and you know why?  cause i love her.  big love.  Sara contributes to my good health and weight loss insanity.

these songs rock my socks in a huge way.

so what rocks your socks?  what music do you listen to when you work out that gives you that extra push…and makes you happy.
share with me please.
i am going to spend some time filling up my ipod with some ear candy – to pump myself up for this Couch to 5K training.
yes i said it…as soon as i find my balls.
cause i am still a little scared…but i think i am almost over it.

so a little musical distraction would be wonderful.
what say you my fellow bloggers?
help a sister out!

and now…click here for more awesomeness!!

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i can do this can’t i?

this is the beginners guide to running.  i could do this no??
now, just what days am i able to do it? at first it looks like i don’t even need 15 minutes (remember my dream????)
i guess even on the days that i am at the gym i can do this OR maybe while i am at the gym i can do this on the treadmill?
Just a thought!

The Couch to 5k Training Plan

Week Day 1 Day 2 Day 3 Day 4 Day 5 Day 6 Day 7
1 5 min walk
2 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! 5 min walk
2 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! 5 min walk
3 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! Relax!
2 5 min walk
3 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! 5 min walk
4 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! 5 min walk
5 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! Relax!
3 5 min walk
6 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! 4 min jog
5 min walk
4 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! 5 min walk
7 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! Relax!
4 5 min walk
7 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! 5 min walk
8 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! 5 min walk
9 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! Relax!
5 5 min walk
9 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! 6 min jog
5 min walk
6 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! 5 min walk
10 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! 5 min walk
11 min jog
5 min walk
6 5 min walk
11 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! 13 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! 15 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! Relax!
7 15 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! 8 min jog
5 min walk
8 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! 16 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! 17 min jog
5 min walk
8 17 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! 18 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! 20 min jog
5 min walk
Relax! Relax!
9 20 min jog Relax! 12 min jog
5 min walk
12 min jog
Relax! 24 min jog Relax! 25 min jog
10 25 min jog Relax! 27 min jog Relax! 30 min jog Relax! Race Day!

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truth in dreams

wow did i ever have some dreams last night.
oddly enough i remember them too.

but this is the one i wanted to share here…

sooooo

in my dream i was getting ready to go to the gym.
i got dressed and started walking.
all of a sudden i end up in my home town and i am wearing running gear…with a # on my chest – like i was getting ready to run a race.  oddly enough the number was 18.
there were people everywhere, and i mean thousands of people all around but it didn’t seem like anyone noticed me.
and so i started to run….and kept running.
oh and in my dream – i am in my 16 year old body…but am the age i am now.

i ran down familiar streets – significant streets actually.
places that meant something to me growing up
everyone was cheering me on…but no one was watching…

i remember i was running for 15 minutes.
i kept repeating to those around me that i ran for 15 minutes and i haven’t done that in 20 years!
and i felt good…and amazing…and proud!
i actually woke up because i was speaking out loud…saying i haven’t done that in 20 years!
lol

and it’s true – i haven’t.

not sure if i ever talked about this over here..but when i was a kid, i loved running.
then….i got hit by a car…at the age of 16.  or was it 15?  oy, my memory is bad!!!
anyways…
i never ran again.
i was on a bike when i got hit, but the car hit my left leg…and i was down…and he was gone –  after he took the time to yell at me for scratching his car.

i went for physiotherapy…but my legs were never the same again. (although he hit the left leg…i landed on the right one and injured that one too)
i also just naturally have two weak ankles…so that doesn’t help.

a couple of years later…i again was on my bike…and was hit.  this guy took off like a bat outta hell.
let me also clarify that both of these times…i had the right of way…i was obeying the rules of the road.
and also let me tell you that my boyfriend at the time got mad at me for getting hit by a car…and i had to go to the hospital all by myself.  imagine  lol.
(he wasn’t my boyfriend much longer)

anyways that time was even more serious…and i was on crutches for about a month – 2 fractures in my leg and my leg literally torn open from the car tire.

my bike was destroyed – obviously… and so my parents actually bought me a new one.  2 weeks later my bike was stolen.
i took it as a sign that i was just not meant to ride a bike.
and i haven’t since.
so it’s probably been 17 years that i have owned a bike.
i am too terrified to own a bike – but sometimes i wish i had one, just to ride the trails around my place…
anyways.
there is the back story as to why i stopped running.

for a long while i have been thinking about running.  i get all the updates on facebook from the Couch to 5k….i follow it religiously.  and of course my fellow blogger friend M – it has been very inspiring to read and follow her running journey…
and so it makes sense that it’s been on my mind.

but where do i find the time????  i am already over booked in my life as is…i just don’t know what parts of my days i can let go of to make room for something new.

and i am scared.

even running across the street is scary for me.  i have landed on my face because my ankles just give out – or they lock right up.
and that’s just running a couple of steps.

i’d like to think that since i have been exercising…i have become stronger.  that what was once weak is now strong.
i can’t honestly remember the last time i fell over..but then again i can’t remember the last time i ran at all.

and it kinda bums me out…because lately it’s all that i can think about.
i remember how much i loved it and how sad i was when it was taken away from me.

maybe it’s a sign – this dream…to face my fears
to just do.
maybe it’s telling me just go – give it 15 minutes.
i mean i will never know unless i try…and if i fall down – well…it makes for a great blog yes?

thoughts anyone?

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run lola run

i’ve been dreaming about running lately.
a lot.
not like in an i’m being chased kind of way, or running away from something/someone – which is quite the reality of my dream nature…
but running as in….wanting to run…being active…choosing to run.

i think it has a lot to do with that inspirational post i put up last week
mr. ben who ran his way to losing over 120 pounds.
although i gotta say that his bloody nipples make me second guess my desire to run!
ouch.

i used to be really active…many many moons ago.
back in school i loved participating in sports.
i kicked ass in high jump – all 5’1 of me, i loved basketball, track and field.
i used to willingly get out of bed really early in the morning to go running.
those days feel almost like a fantasy than part of my reality.

my running days ended when i got hit by a car.  twice.
my legs have never been the same.
i mean even walking sometimes, my ankles will lock up and landing on my face is very much a real fear of mine.
so i gave up running, took up smoking and became a lazy teenager.

since i have been working out, and walking…i feel so much stronger
thinking back i cannot recall a time where my ankles locked…in 5 miles of straight walking.

and so i have started thinking of running.

the weather is getting much colder…and i won’t lie.  i hate the cold.
i wonder how i will walk once it’s winter….because i know myself…and i just don’t do winter.

and so i am thinking about getting a treadmill.
this way i can keep walking…and start running again…in the comfort of my own home
and if my ankles give out…at least i won’t be making an ass outta myself in front of other people.

i am really excited about this idea!!

but…i think my life is about to get crazy busy soon.
insanely busy.
in such a kick ass, wonderful…amazing way.
so my brilliant idea may need to be put on hold.

on hold, but not forgotten.


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if you are looking for inspiration

you have come to the right place.

i logged on to facebook last night and found something posted by a friend and wanted to share it with as many people as i could.

this man is my new inspiration.  amazing.

take a look at this video:

He also has a blog…

 http://bendoeslife.tumblr.com

I hope this too, inspires you.

totally unrelated…yesterday’s blog was posted at 11:11…not planned…just happened.
Hope you made a wish 🙂

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