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i get knocked down

well i finally got a little break from my insomnia.

it came in the form of a migraine.
not the answer i was looking for let me tell you.

i have suffered with migraines since my early twenties.  i went through a really bad break up…and voila…migraines became a part of my life.
i don’t get them nearly as often as i used to – thank god.  but it’s still not fun when they pay me a visit.

i had one hour left in my day yesterday…when it came to the point that i either needed to leave the office NOW or be stuck here bowing to the porcelain god.
and so off i went.

it may sound strange to you…but my migraines are actually an unusual blessing.

i only get them if i am stressed out to the core, or if my body is tired of trying to get it through to my stubborn brain –  that i need to slow it down.
so my body shuts down – and i am forced to give myself the thing i so desperately need.  rest.

i went home and slept for about 4 hours!!! 4 hours!  a deep sleep.  the puppy, perhaps sensing i was not at my best, slept on top of me and didn’t leave my side.

i was able to sleep the whole night through too – well i woke up once…
but the point is i slept.

today i am battling a slight headache.  typical when i get a migraine…the remnants stay for a few days.

i was going to go to the gym tonight..to make up for last nights ass kicking.
but i will play it by ear.  if i feel tired and sore…i won’t.
i don’t need to commit to anything in this moment…other than doing what’s best for me.

have a great weekend kids 🙂

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day-cation

boo

the day-cation is officially over.
funny how when you are having a great time… time passes so quickly!!!

it was a great weekend.
sigh
and it’s over
a very expensive weekend – but you only live once!
see my new stylin’ hat?  i know the picture sucks but look at my bee-utiful hat!!!!

it was such an American weekend lol

a few years ago they got rid of all of the Outback restaurants in Canada.
i was devastated.  i loved the Outback!!!!!!
so as we were driving to our hotel to check in – what do we pass?????
AN OUTBACK!!!!
within walking distance!!!!
craaaaaaazy

i don’t have to tell you where we ate
and i will not tell you what i ate (but i will show you something i ate lol)

i was soooo very bad…i have the headache today to show for it

it was an amazing weekend.  lots of walking, laughing, eating…and wine 🙂
it was purrrfect.
i am glad we got to walk around and take things in – burn off dinner…take in the view.

i’ve been there before…but each and every time i go, i see through new eyes.
i have amazing memories and not so amazing memories of that place
but each time i go…it just keeps getting better and better – this is one of the pictures from the hotel.  not a bad view huh?

For breakfast we went to IHOP
again, i didn’t think we had IHOP’s in Canada…so of course we just had to eat there
i had strawberry banana pancakes
i thought i died and went to heaven…and then so did my belly.  i could not eat all of it…tooooooo much!!

wow – by Sunday my poor belly looked like i was 4 months pregnant.  i wish it didn’t dislike carbs so much!!!!!

I have lots of pictures and videos…but none that i will share here..although i gotta say, the videos are so awesome that the whole world should witness them…especially me belting out adele –  rolling in the deep lol

i’ll save all that for the blog next door.

no gym for me tonight…no time – apparently the hotel i stayed at had an amazing gym -alas i did not see it!!!

this being an adult stuff is for the birds.  i just wanna play!!!!

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road trippin’

i am running away
no, not forever…one could only wish

i am heading out of the city for a couple of days
for a much deserved and much needed break from real life

mamma’s tired kids.

i am looking forward to not cooking dinner, not doing laundry, not walking a dog, not going to the gym, not waking up at some god awful hour –  not being a responsible adult for a little bit.
i am going somewhere where i will be taken care of…
where the only worry i will have is what restaurants to eat at and if they have that top in blue
yesssss….there will be shopping!!!!
maybe i will find the dress there unexpectedly too!!
where someone will leave chocolates on my pillow and make my bed
i will get some exercise in…what with all the shopping and site seeing 🙂
yay me!!!!!
i cannot wait!
ohhhhhh and there may just be swimming – better pack the bikini just in case.
(and if you are reading this jm, you may even get a skivvie pic outta this trip lol)

i love nothing more than getting into a car and road trippin’  it…singing songs at the top of my lungs, smiling ear to ear..with my feet on the dashboard sippin’ on my iced coffee – and of course amazing company! (that’s probably the best part of it all)

road trips rock my socks!!!!

Have a most amazing weekend – i’ll see you on the flip side!

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white flag

i know that i am pretty similar to wonder woman
actually…the similarities are endless really 🙂
but mamma, i am tired.

i realized that i was just worn out when i nearly dropped dead on Friday
i just think my body was telling me to chill right out.
and so….i shall try.

there’s just so much that needs to be done in a day
i simply don’t have the hours.  add another 3-4 hours and maybe, just maybe…we’ll be all good.

so i am trying to simplify.

i have come here for help kids.

being creative with dinner on a daily basis is just not gonna happen.
my life is much easier…less stressful when i can cook a meal that can last me 2-3 days.
that takes the pressure out of finding time to cook and eat
and will also help me to not have the desire to stray from my low carb
by the time i get home, do what needs to be done…and even think about dinner…i am famished!
all of a sudden anything carby and sinful sounds like a perfect idea.
i really don’t want to cave in to the demons in my belly.

i have a few meals that i make on a regular basis, but i don’t want to grow tired of them.
i need to switch things up.

and so i come here waving my little white flag…
admitting i just don’t know what to do anymore.
i’ve come here asking…more like…begging for my fellow low carb friends for some recipes
something i can make that will last me a couple of dinners
and isn’t all that time consuming to make.

am i asking for too much?
some simplicity in my life somewhere???
i thought i’d start with the meals and go from there.

if i don’t catch a breath sooner or later…i may just cry.
and you really don’t want to see me cry…do you?

help!!
any ideas would be greatly appreciated.
bring it!

i also just wanted to take a second…and tell the blogging world…
that i really miss my puppy.  i miss him every day…but today i miss him a ton.
6 years ago today i put my little man down.
the picture isn’t the best, but hey…when you look good…you look good.  there’s no hiding that.
i love you my little squish man.

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unwell

i could barely hold my head up yesterday
i debated leaving work…but i stuck it out
on the drive home, i kept the window down (thank god it was nice out)
thinking, i could fall asleep at any given moment.
i guess i don’t have to tell you…the gym did not happen yesterday.

i got home and walked the puppy…and talked her in to napping with me
she cuddled into me and we were both out like a light

i was running a fever and really thought i had the dreaded carb flu..from all the ‘bad” food i had the night before

i slept about 12 hours!  i never sleep 12 hours

it was so beautiful out today…i forced myself outdoors
thought the air and the sun would do me some good

after all it was just the carb flu.

oh and the puppy…thanks to one of my cats, who shall remain nameless – Clark
ate my eyeliner while i was away at work
which resulted in my little puppy vomiting a few times in the middle of the night

anyways i took her to the park today and we both got some exercise
but we both weren’t really at our best…or in the mood.

ok..so maybe it’s not the carb flu at all.

i’ve been surrounded by sick people…i’ve been sneezing and coughing
blahhhh
and i just got up from a nap – sorta.
the puppy didn’t think it was necessary and kept giving me kisses and wanted to play
if she wasn’t so damn cute i’d be mad…
but i am just too tired to be mad

so i guess i gotta admit
i have a cold…and it’s running me down…and i’m as white as a ghost
i feel like i could sleep my life away right now.

why do i get sick on weekends?
whatever happened to missing time off of work to deal with it all?

poor me right?

yes, a little cheese with my whine would be lovely.

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burn out

it’s wednesday and i think i am just now really feeling the effects of all the crap my body has been fed for well over 2 weeks.
 
i am on my third day back of clean eating, and honestly…it feels so good.  i am not craving anything “bad” nor do i feel deprived.
 
sometimes after straying from my low carb lifestyle, it’s very difficult to get back in the swing of things.  not this time.  this time i craved the food i put on hold.
 
i went down for breakfast this morning…everyone was ordering toast and bagels with cream cheese etc..and my eyes went directly to the mixed vegetables and i think i may have drooled a bit.
 
it was a mix of red peppers, mushrooms, onions, zucchini.
i love me some fresh veggies.  so they made me a one egg omelette and i was a very happy girl.
 
i just gotta get through this week i think.  i am feeling delirious…a little crazy.
 
right now i am famished.  it’s like there is not enough food in the world to sustain me.  i am tired, exhausted really.
i think i am officially going through burn out from my busy couple of weeks and from detoxing my poor body.  i am a crazy monkey!!!!
 
one weekend was not enough down time.
 
i shake my fist at you Texas..with all your good eatin’ and no sense of portion control…and your amazing southern hospitality. lol.
 
not to worry.  i am going to take this sad, starving, tired body to the gym tonight and kick some serious ass.
 
 
i’ll be “me” again before you know it.

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no worries

i’m still alive 🙂

i am finally in my jammies after two extremely long, hectic, crazy days.

i am barely alert…so i dunno what you should expect from me.

two days of not being “here”… i thank those that sent me messages.  all is well…i have just been insanely busy.

being out of my element proved to be a struggle and extremely joyful.

socially i couldn’t have asked for better people to spend my time with….
but i was on someone elses clock, and had to fly by the seat of my pants…

which meant food was a huge issue.
huge.

food was made, and as a guest…it would have been rude to make a special request
and so i sucked it up and tried to be as “good” as i could be.
it was slim pickins.

so there was the food, that i really shouldn’t be eating….coupled with the fact that there was no gym
well…the guilt was pretty huge.

sigh.

i mean i wasn’t stagnant by any means…but i was so completely off my own routine, my own kitchen, my own element
it was a marriage of so many different emotions….i just didn’t know how to deal with it all.

life happens….and it was great these past two days.
my cheeks still hurt from laughing…and my feet so sore from all the walking.

and so now…i guess i just suck it up…and accept it for what it is.
it’s just the way life goes sometimes.

i’ll get over it…and this glass of wine is sure helping.

i am off to get a well deserved good nights sleep…because the next two weeks will be equally insane, if not worse.
oy vay.

and how have all of you lovelies been?

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take it easy

i worked out last night
(insert big round of applause here please)
 
after sitting on a dining room chair for most of the day working
i was amazed i could even stand erect.
i cannot believe how uncomfortable those chairs are!!!
i apologize to my friends who come over…i can’t believe i make you sit on them.
next time it’s dinner on the couch.
 
anyways…i have rambled.
 
so yes, i worked out last night.  i was very tempted to just not do it…but my body was actually craving it – imagine that.
so i took it slow.  yesterday was not about kicking ass…it was about just moving…burning calories, getting my heart rate up and breaking a sweat.
half way through my back pain was almost non existent.  it actually feels good when i am working out.
what happens afterwards we won’t even talk about – as i am sure you are sick of hearing about it.
 
tonight should be my ab work out…but i don’t know how possible that will be.
see…the puppy thinks it’s play time.  something about me lying on my back is an invitation for her to jump all over me and kiss and play.  for some odd reason while on the mat she thinks my ear is a chew toy.  nothing like razor sharp puppy teeth trying to Van Gogh me.
also, my pony tail must look like a tug of war toy because last time….this 10 pound dog (if that) was able to grab hold of my pony tail and physically move me!!
 
seriously…you can’t get mad.  how can you get mad at a little munchkin who loves you so much they just wanna play?
working out for 20 min…or being loved up by a puppy?
the decision doesn’t seem so difficult.
although..it is making me consider a gym membership lol
 
so we shall see how it goes.  wish me luck!
 

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vacation mode

it’s a little hard for my mind to wrap around vacation mode.

although, the night hawk in me seems to have no problem.

i was up until 4am this morning.  I stirred in bed this morning and struggled to get up.
I really didn’t need to wake up.
There was no work to go to, no dog to walk.  the cats were perfectly content lounging with me.
but i got up anyways.  sleeping in too long feels like a waste of day…why not waste it on the couch in my fat pants!
besides, i am a professional napper…and i have all the time in the world to do that today.

As i was sitting on the couch, with a purring cat on my lap….
the very last thing i wanted to do was move.  I argued with myself for what seemed forever and finally got off the couch (much to my cat’s dismay) and got changed and worked out.

I totally get how a lot of people have good intentions and yet give up on working out.  it’s so much easier to chill out and just be…

but…i am sooo happy that i did – like i always am after a work out.  It was good…i kicked some serious ass
and felt worlds better afterwards.

I threw myself in the shower…went grocery shopping….and now i am sitting here on my couch, waiting patiently for my awesome dinner to be ready (low carb of course)
I am drinking a low carb beer, and looking forward to the nap that’s gonna happen in the very near future.

with as much as i have on my mind….i am doing pretty well.  taking care of myself, eating as healthy as possible and trying to enjoy this time away from work – although work would be an awesome distraction if i have to be honest.

Today is a not so bad a day.

Let’s hope tonight, sleep finds me at a decent hour….i gotta be at the airport early in the morning!!!

Happy Monday kids.


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the day after

well, christmas came and went faster than the blink of an eye.
i wrote all about my time on the blog next door…and it’s totally not health/weight loss related…so i won’t go into it here.

i’d like to say i was “good” but i wasn’t all that great.
lets just say there was cheesecake and baklava.

i will say that all the leftovers that i brought home
are all on plan.
i may have slipped a few chocolates in to my bag, but they are not for me…i swear!!!

i will make sure i get in a good cardio work out tomorrow…or should i say today.
oy vay.

how was your christmas??

now, i am more than ready…completely 100% ready to go on vacation
let the relaxing and mind numbing times begin.

if anyone can find a brown spotted dalmatian and slip her in to my stocking
well…that would just make my year.

woe is me.

oh…and i had the most wonderful skype date ever.
maybe that’s why i am wide awake at 2am.

2 more sleeps.
can’t wait!!!!!


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