as you can see, i haven’t had anything to write about in a very long time.
actually that’s a big fat lie. i’ve had a ton to write about, but nothing losingbee related.
and it sucks
let me fill you in since the last post.
pull up a chair, i have a feeling this is going to be a long one.
last i wrote, i had rediscovered my love for running
and then the shin splints happened, and suddenly my love turned into horrible fear.
i would run until i was in so much pain i couldn’t handle it anymore.
i would be far from home and hardly able to walk…i don’t know how i made it home sometimes.
so i bought a pair of extremely expensive runners and insoles…and was ready to try.
i got to go for a run once or twice and my shins felt a little bit better…and then life happened.
i got super busy (and stressed) packing up the last 20 years of my life and moving.
running could wait until that was done.
somehow, during this move…i lost a box of shoes. all fairly brand new pairs of shoes…one pair being my super expensive runners (and my wii. where the hell did my wii go?)
granted, i didn’t know it at the time
because then this happened:
the cider was just for show 😉
they wouldn’t xray it, saying it was just a really bad sprain
fast forward to today…over 4 months later…and it still hurts and it still gets swollen and even walking a fair distance is hard.
me thinks i should go get it checked out again.
and all of these meds came with horrible side effects.
some may argue that moodiness was the worst side effect and my bodacious ta ta’s were the bonus
i would disagree.
then add to this the fact that i quit smoking. it’s been 54 days, 14 hours, 59 minutes and 56 seconds (but really whose counting)
so just imagine. moodiness and quitting smoking
i must be a JOY to be around.
and then there is that amazing cycle so many of us are familiar with.
you feel like crap, you feel like crap for gaining weight, so you eat crap food and then feel even more crappy cause you feel like crap
lather rinse repeat.
and it makes me feel like crap.
i have entered a very new and important chapter in my life.
unhealthy isn’t an option.
i started again.
but maybe it will get stronger as i get stronger
and hopefully thinner
and besides…eating healthy is never a bad thing.
so that’s my news
what’s new with you?