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because sharing is caring

so i went to the gym tonight.

i managed 45 minutes of crazy ass cardio – like sweat my butt off cardio
i felt accomplished and amazing!!

i get home and an elevator is not working.  i wait about 5 minutes and then little ol’ impatient me…decided i’d had enough

what does bee do?

i took the stairs.

did i mention i live on the 11th floor?
11 stories i climbed.

i think i almost died – seriously – died
oh my poor ass and legs.

that is all

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change of plans – and a rant if you will

today didn’t go as planned – but life rarely does.

i am battling with what seems like round two of this cold.  it really sucks.
i mean i am functional and all…but this cough is just kicking my ass.
it seems to be going around too – everyone i know is sick

so now that the insomnia is gone – i am still getting no sleep.
every time i started to fall into a sweet slumber i woke up choking – unable to catch my breath
that’s the worst feeling in the world…tears running down my face…ugh it’s crap
how do you fall asleep after that??

so needless to say…i was a little zombie like this morning getting up for work

do you know how hard it is to work from home when you feel crappy and tired – knowing that your comfortable, cozy bed is just down the hall?
talk about a tease
it’s even harder when you have the cutest puppy in the world wanting to snuggle with you.

i got through the day – and once i shut down the work computer i headed straight to my bedroom
i managed a 20 min nap.  better than nothing i suppose.

i crawled outta bed…threw on a baseball cap (and clothes of course…cause that would just be weird)…hopped in the car and met up with a lovely lady for dinner.

they didn’t have my first choice low carb beer – so i settled for this.  notice the picture?  how oh how did they get this picture of me????

i started off with a lovely salad;

and then the most delicious wings in the world.  please note these are not dusted (breaded).  so they are completely on plan and absolutely yummm.

i ended off the night with a starbucks.  i drank it like the complete addict i am and so there is no picture…but i am sure you don’t mind.

so i didn’t have the chance to get to the gym to give them a piece of my mind today…there is always tomorrow
they are already on my blacklist –
our company reimburses their employees a good amount of money if they join a gym
they like to encourage health and wellness
anyways i need to show proof of payment and i get money
when i asked them for a break down of my payments it was just printed off on a plain piece of paper…no letter head
and as i suspected – my work will not accept it.
the owner says they have no letter head.  please.  arg, they really do have me by the balls don’t they?

i hate to be a bitch…but i feel like it’s time i bring out the bitch card.  i see no other way.
my cute smile isn’t working…so what else is a girl to do? lol

AND…why do they keep changing the wordpress layout???  seriously i just got used to the last change and now they throw in another?  give a girl a break already!
anyways – that is the end of my rant.

i heard this song tonight and thought it was pretty…and so i thought i’d share.  click here

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bowling and balls

i really do rock.

it’s after 8…and i just sat down.
man am i ever tired.

i just did a million loads of laundry…made a wonderful dinner…and made my bed
i am celebrating with a glass of wine
i love nothing more than hopping into a bed with crisp, clean linen.
ok enough of the domestic goddess in me.

my whole body aches.
actually not as bad as it did over the weekend…but i am always amazed at how many different muscles our bodies have.

for someone who goes to the gym regularly…i am sore!!

why am i sore?  i’ll tell u, but don’t laugh.


bowling kicked my ass!!!!

i knew that my wrist/arm would be sore – i have carpal tunnel and bowling is probably not the best thing for it…
but what amazes me is how sore my legs and my ass are!!!!
i mean how many muscles does it take to bowl??
apparently alot.
i am sure my ass is happy 🙂

i can’t say i wasn’t warned:

i get to sleep in tomorrow – i am working from home.
which means i can get to the gym way before it gets busy…which makes me happy.

what doesn’t make me happy?
i just found out that the gym charged me an additional 30 bucks for annual maintenance fees…and equipment upgrades
that’s bullshit – cause if you saw my gym you’d know they are lying
but what can i do?  they got me by the balls
i am sure it is written in small tiny letters on the contract i signed
they claimed to have sent me a letter – i haven’t received it….and my credit card has been charged
what can i do other than give them a  piece of my mind – which i am fairly good at 🙂

and that’s my update of sorts.
happy monday kids.

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i’m just confused

i’m confused – so i am going to talk it out over here.

my preferred cardio is the elliptical.  i feel like i get a really good workout on it.
over the past couple of months i have been alternating with the bike – because i know that it’s good to switch things up.

So yesterday i decided i was going to do 45 minutes on the bike.
it was an awesome cardio work out – it really kicked my ass something fierce.

what i don’t get is – i always assumed the elliptical was a harder work out.
for example – 15 minutes on the elliptical and i burn approximately 200 calories (although i have always been skeptical – i mean how accurate can that really be)
so in a typical half hour cardio workout – i burn roughly 400 calories.


i get on the bike – which is seemingly “easier” and it takes me 45 minutes to burn what i burn on the elliptical in 15!
so in my 45 minute work out on the bike – it says i burned 200 calories and biked 15 km’s.

i get the whole different equipment, different muscles etc…
but i kid you not – i put a lot of work into my cardio session yesterday.
i don’t think i have ever sweat more in my life.
i was exhausted and sweaty and gross – my legs were like rubber – it was awesome!!!
so it doesn’t really “feel” easier – i sweat more on that damn bike than i do on the elliptical hands down.

so how is it possible?  i feel like i worked out twice as hard on that bike and got such minimal results.

is the key just ignoring the calorie count and keep doing what i am doing?
i don’t put a lot of thought into the calorie count –  but the difference from elliptical to the bike is rather outrageous no???

just wondering out loud that’s all.

i’ve been going to the gym solo more often than not…which is ok…it doesn’t bother me…
but i get bored a lot easier since i have no one there to talk to and harass!
yesterday i decided to leave the ipod at home – and take a book!  yep – i got to catch up on some reading while on the bike!!!
I’ve been trying to read Sybil for months now – what an amazing multi tasker i am 🙂

i have a busy busy fun weekend ahead of me…
i am skipping the gym tonight for a fun night of bowling!!!  it’s been years since i’ve bowled.  i am the best underhand bowler in the universe, i am pretty sure of it 🙂

have an awesome weekend folks and play nice!

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back on that horsie

after taking a full week off of my regular life – i am feeling heavy.
literally. lol

battling with the head cold from hell, and traveling last week – there was just no way i could get to the gym and be functional.
i could barely make it through an 8 hour work day…never mind getting my work out in.
walking 10 steps was enough for my poor little lungs.
let’s not even talk about Thanksgiving dinner(s).  oy vay.

I am feeling much better.  i have remnants of this stupid cold – sneezing and a terrible cough that seems to wake me up in the middle of the night…but i can breathe…finally
and i have more energy…so as i see it there is no excuse not to go.
(although i am sure if given the opportunity i could whip up an excuse in no time)

in the past…missing a full week at the gym would have probably turned me into an anxiety riddled  crazy manic person.
Actually, i probably would have pushed myself to go – and made myself even sicker!

that is so not the case anymore.
once i put it through my stubborn little head that this indeed is a lifestyle – i felt alot better about things.
meaning – life happens.  sometimes i won’t be able to go to the gym…due to sickness, or just other commitments – or traveling.
it’s life – and sometimes life is not about an uber strict schedule.

if i am going to dedicate my whole life to working out and being healthy
i need to be a realist.
every week will not see me at the gym 3-4 times
every single thing i put in my mouth will not be the very best decision.

but knowing this makes all the difference…because i am not giving myself an excuse to back out of my commitments.
i am giving myself permission to live – accordingly.
and that takes so much pressure off of little ol’ me.

who knew.
once i grew an i don’t give a shit attitude – things seem easier – i can see the bigger picture.

so it’s back on my horsey tonight – or should i say elliptical.

i can do it.  if i happen to start hacking up a lung – i just stop.
try again tomorrow.

see?  simple.  i don’t know why i was making it so damn hard.
when you remove the pressure of having to do something – you get a much more tolerant, cooperative bee 🙂

on to other news…the weather over in my end of the world has been amazing.  we are talking summer like weather.
a coworker and i decided to skip on our lunch and take in a nice long walk in the sun.
i feel so amazing!  my freckles aren’t going away quite yet.
so we had to have our lunch at our desks – but hey – it was so well worth it.  looks like fall will be rolling in as of tomorrow…so i will take all the sun i can!!
boo 😦

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mermaid or whale

this has been circulating around my friends on facebook and the message needs to be seen by everyone!

A while back, at the entrance of a gym, there was a picture of a very thin and beautiful woman. The caption was “This summer, do you want to be a mermaid or a whale?”

The story goes, a woman (of clothing size unknown) answered the following way:

“Dear people, whales are always surrounded by friends (dolphins, seals, curious humans), they are sexually active and raise their children with great tenderness.
They entertain like crazy with dolphins and eat lots of prawns. They swim all day and travel to fantastic places like Patagonia, the Barents Sea or the coral reefs of Polynesia.
They sing incredibly well and sometimes even are on cds. They are impressive and dearly loved animals, which everyone defend and admires.

Mermaids do not exist.

But if they existed, they would line up to see a psychologist because of a problem of split personality: woman or fish?
They would have no sex life and could not bear children.
Yes, they would be lovely, but lonely and sad.
And, who wants a girl that smells like fish by his side?

Without a doubt, I’d rather be a whale.

At a time when the media tells us that only thin is beautiful, I prefer to eat ice cream with my kids, to have dinner with my husband, to eat and drink and have fun with my friends.

We women, we gain weight because we accumulate so much wisdom and knowledge that there isn’t enough space in our heads, and it spreads all over our bodies.
We are not fat, we are greatly cultivated.
Every time I see my curves in the mirror, I tell myself: “How amazing am I ?! ”

(The girl on the picture is French model Tara Lynn)

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going back to where it all started

a week before i made a conscious decision to change my life for the better…

i had to travel to Montreal for work.

Despite the fact that my life was spiraling out of control and i felt like a complete and utter mess on the inside…
on the outside i must have been exuding a kick ass confidence that really…was non existent.
I was sent to Montreal to learn a new job – a promotion – because apparently higher management thought i was doing an exceptional job.
i guess on the outside i didn’t look so messed up.
i’ve always been a good clown.

My boss came with me – which is always fun.  She is a good boss and an awesome person to hang out with after hours.

One of the nights there…my boss and a coworker from Montreal wanted to go shopping. We had a mall right beside the hotel  we were staying in – how convenient.

I however did not want to go.  I was at least 20 pounds heavier then…and trying on clothing was like Chinese water torture to me.
Did i mention that my boss is so very tiny that i have always wondered where on earth she gets her clothes?  i mean, she would swim in a size zero.

i pretended to look around, my boss tried to convince me to try stuff on – but i told her that i just didn’t have room in my luggage even if i wanted to buy anything (lies of course)

it was a horrible trip.  not because the people i was with were horrible, not at all.  They were too good to me…spoiling me with amazing dinners every single night i was there…
one of my coworkers (that i was training with and had just met) made me lunch and brought it in for me – yeah, i instantly fell in love with her – and talk to her every day now 🙂

i just wasn’t in the mind set that involved anything past inhaling and exhaling.
pretending to be jovial and smile seemed like such an unreachable feat…when all i wanted to do was to be left alone and curl up in a ball.
i don’t know how i never noticed it then – but obviously i was going through a severe depression.

Yes, there were awesome things going on in my life – including the promotion that i never felt worthy of at the time…
but you really can’t see the light when you are surrounded by so much darkness.

Heading back home turned out to be a nightmare as well…we had really bad weather and ended up staying a night in Ottawa because we couldn’t get home.  All i wanted to do was get back home – to my normal.

When i finally got home – i got word that a friend of mine had committed suicide.
i had had enough.  i turned into this big fat inconsolable puddle on my couch and hated everything.  everything.
i took the week to absorb what’s happened in my life – and then i got off of my ass and moved mountains.
and the rest as they say – is history.

i am heading to Montreal in a week and a half.  I am going for training yet again – because higher management believes in me.
This time – so do I.

this time i am going as a new person.  Over twenty pounds smaller, an over all happier and much healthier girl will be arriving there.
i will be spending my time at the same hotel – beside the mall that almost 2 years ago made me cry.
i didn’t know where the gym was last time i was there – i really didn’t care…
today i have already mapped it out (although i’ve been told i won’t have much down time)

this time i cannot wait to get there…to the mall…to the office to once again see my wonderful coworkers that i miss.

I am not devastated or anywhere near a rock bottom.
Sure i get sad…i get down…and it’s easy to want to sit there and feel it.
but i much prefer this bee…the happier one.

This time…i will leave much room in my luggage for new clothes.
i really can’t wait.

I’m ready to take Montreal in with new eyes.

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houston, we are having a breakdown

well it finally happened
bee had a tad of a melt down yesterday.  i looked a little like this lol

as per usual, i raced home to take my sweet puppy outside for a walk.
raced back in and got dressed for the gym.
right before i left…i felt a little woozy and nauseous.  no worries…i figured it would pass.

ran downstairs to meet GB, got in her car…and my world started spinning
“i don’t feel so good” i said.
she asked if i wanted to stay home…and i said no way – this will pass.

we pulled into the parking lot…and i have the sweats, crazy beating heart…and i still feel nauseous.
my world is spinning – and i am getting ready to go in and do some cardio.
what is wrong with this picture???

GB after looking at me like i had 5 heads told me i probably shouldn’t go in feeling the way i do.
it took a bit of convincing – but alas i did not go.

we grabbed an iced coffee and headed to the lake for some fresh air.

10 minutes later i told her we could go try working out.
she laughed at me and ignored me.

i don’t know what i was thinking – but there is no way i could have worked out.

i went home and that’s when it all spiraled out of control.

i washed some dishes, got my recyclables together…and thought about dinner.
all the while debating whether i should run out and get my butt to the gym.

i felt so guilty.  missing one day at the gym totally screwed up my schedule.

now i had to rearrange everything.

my life is all about structure.  it never has been before…but now it has to be….for me to be remotely successful

when was i going to do everything else??

i was defeated…i felt an immense guilt inside…that i was failing.  i am wonder woman…i am supposed to be able to do everything!
i can handle anything.

but at that moment i felt so overwhelmed.  i felt like a soccer mom – without the kids.
i felt completely and utterly defeated – and damn tired.

but i keep that all in.  no room for complaining that i am tired, or stressed…overwhelmed…
who really wants to hear that?
i am not a whiner by nature.  i tough it out.  i am strong like bull.

so i sat there in my guilt.  i have a Greek mother (sorry ma) i was groomed to feel guilt over everything.
if you sat me down and told me world hunger was actually my doing…i would guarantee you i’d feel guilty about that too!!

i just have no time – and my body finally let me process that.
i can’t remember the last time i sat down and was able to pay attention to one of my favourite shows on tv.
i used to watch Criminal Minds in bed before i fell asleep…and now i can’t get through 10 minutes of it.
i am just so damn tired.

so what did i do?
what any sensible girl would do.
i cried over my steamed broccoli – and analyzed every single aspect of my life and fed my enormous guilt with my tears.
i had a pity party for one…and then stopped.

took the puppy to the dog park and got lots of love from puppies which made me feel worlds better.
i mean what heart would not melt from puppy kisses???

oh…and i feel better today.
i felt better right after i ate…i suppose i was crazy hungry.

oh and in case you are even questioning…i still am wonder woman.
i will always kick serious ass.
i am sure even wonder woman breaks down now and then.

self portrait

and if you care at all…this is what my horoscope says today:

Be more realistic about what you can do. You might be a bit overly sensitive about what you are offering in a situation. Everyone feels limited at times. Don’t push so hard right now. Tonight: Let someone else treat.

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can we talk about this for a moment?

the first time i heard the term “planking” was probably about a month ago.
I was driving in to work and listening to the news.
apparently someone was “planking” on their balcony ledge and fell over and died.

slow down and rewind.

i could not believe what i was hearing.
there was no way someone of sound mind would willingly do an exercise position on the ledge of their balcony.
this person was obviously a sandwich short of a picnic.
i could not wrap my head around it.

oh man i am so not with the times.

I got into the office and googled “planking” because i knew i had to be missing something.
indeed i was.

this is what planking looks like:

Wikipedia defines planking as:

Planking or the lying down game is an activity consisting of lying face down in an unusual or incongruous location. The hands must touch the sides of the body and having a photograph of the participant taken and posted on the internet is an integral part of the game.[1] Players compete to find the most unusual and original location in which to play.[1] The term planking refers to mimicking a wooden plank.

Many participants of planking since 2011 have photographed the activity on unusual locations such as atop poles, roofs and vehicles, while some “plankers” engage in the activity by planking only their upper body and feet while leaving the back suspended.

true story.
I must be old because…well for starters i never knew this existed…and 2, how the heck is this considered fun???

The plank…in my life…is a move i was taught at the gym. this is what my plank looks like:

As my friend Wikipedia states:

The plank (also called a front hold, hover, or abdominal bridge) is an isometric core strength exercise that involves maintaining a difficult position for extended periods of time. The most common plank is the front plank which is held in a push-up position with the body’s weight borne on forearms, elbows, and toes.

Many variations exist such as the side plank and the reverse plank. The plank is commonly practiced in Pilates and yoga, and by those training for boxing and related sports.
The plank strengthens the abdominals, back, and shoulders

Imagine my confusion in all of this.

So the other day i am racing out of my building to get to the gym…and my little neighbour friend G shouts out “hey bee!!!  i was just planking it’s so cool, watch”
i turned around and asked him…”honestly, what is that!!”

so he shows me his “planking” – or is it his “plank”  or he “planked” for me
my lord i am so confused.

he looked like a stiff bored.  mission accomplished…way to go.
he was so proud of himself…and me being one to not hurt anyone’s feelings (intentionally) especially a kids….i told him he looked awesome!!!

he then asked me to do one with him.

i’ll do anything to make a kid happy…just about anything…except planking…or plank
god help me.

i’ll save my planks for the gym thank you very much.

no offense to the planking crowd out there.

planks but no planks.

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