laying on the beach – getting sun kissed
my gorgeous 7 year old niece wanted to go into the water with me
she’s begging me to get up
and so up i got
she looks at me and says – auntie bee? why does your belly button disappear when you sit up?
it took me a second or two to register – and before i could say anything – miss tiny skinny minnie says – it’s ok…mine does too.
(bless her little heart)
i started laughing
you know the laugh
that kind of laugh that comes from deep in your belly and it’s hard to catch your breath – tears in your eyes
i said – i am a little older than you baby – i have more skin
i grabbed her hand and off we went in to the water and had the time of our lives
had anyone else said that to me
i probably would have been horrified – and covered myself up immediately
i would have stewed over it for days – and shoved my mouth full of comfort food
i would have felt sorry for myself and no doubt would cry buckets of tears
but she’s seven.
not only is she 7 – but i watch her – looking at other women – their bodies – their figures – even their breasts
comparing herself – assessing herself
she picks herself apart
she bragged to me how the one piece she was wearing was a size smaller than what she should be wearing
where does she get this? because it certainly isn’t coming from us – her family.
did i mention she is 7?
she refused to wear a bikini – and felt more comfortable in a one piece
that was fine with me – i told her she could wear whatever bathing suit she wanted
later we went shopping and she was eyeballing a bikini
she called me over and told me she loved it
i asked her what about that bikini she liked
it was padded. it would give her a chest
did her honest little question sting?
but she was just asking a question.
she loves me. doesn’t care what i weigh, or what size my clothes are
she loves me
and i love her
and because i love her – i hope to god my reaction to her question was all the answer that she needed
who cares if you can’t see your belly button when you sit down
i am still awesome – i can still play in the water with her – we can still laugh and have a great time
i will flaunt this kick ass body in a bikini any day!
belly button or no belly button at all
and i hope – that as she gets older – she will do the same damn thing