so i’ve been a work out machine over the past few months
the odd part of it all?
i am loving it. i think that “loving” could be an understatement actually
it’s the highlight of my day – almost every single day
i am in love with Shaun T and his Cize dvd’s
seriously i cannot get enough
So over the weekend
i was wired. i don’t know where my energy came from
but i had a lot of it
i worked out for 2 hours on the Saturday
and i felt amazing
Sunday i did another hour and a half
and when i was done
my ankle just felt “off”
so i did what any other sane person would do
and did another hour on Monday
by the end of that work out
i was in pain
soooo much pain
i managed to get myself showered – and almost fell going up the stairs
i could barely put any weight on my foot
look down…and my ankle had been replaced by a softball
or so it seemed
and what did i do the next day?
loaded up on advil – bought an ankle support thingy – hobbled the whole day through
and still intended on working out
(how i am not really sure)
it didn’t happen
i ended up going to the walk in on wednesday
i could have swore something was cracked in there
(i should mention, i parked two blocks away…on purpose…to get more exercise – yes even though i believed i might have a fractured ankle. i’m a sad human)
after a few xrays – i was all clear
no fracture
just a bad sprain – caused by the bad sprain i had a couple years ago
no working out for at least a week
what??!?!?!
the doc said i was able to go on walks though
ok….
so i will walk
10k is not considered a work out is it?
cause that’s what i was going to do. that night i got dressed…not giving a damn what i looked like
(and i looked ahhhmazing)

i started my very fast paced 10k
until i stopped
and managed 4k
4k too many i think
because wow – by the time i got home
i had tears in my eyes
and couldn’t even get myself to the couch
advil and ice
my new best friends
but the problem my friends is….
i just can’t sit still
so i did it again tonight
i debated working out – but talked myself out of it
took a new scenic route today
and almost cried
i’d say about 60% of that walk was on an incline
and my ankle doesn’t seem to like it that much
but i made it
barely
i’m stretched out on my couch
icing my poor excuse for an ankle
feeling somewhat defeated
but thinking of ways to still get my groove on
you know what’s a little frightening?
i am getting more exercise with a bummed out ankle
than i was just a few months ago
when i was physically capable
almost twice as much from what my fitbit is telling me
another scary thought?
i’ve been at this for quite some time
and don’t really notice a physical difference
which is really defeating
other people have commented
but the weight loss is excruciatingly sloooowwwwww
it’s true
the older you get
the harder it is to drop the weight
and that’s a sad sad realization
when i know i will be in a bathing suit in about a month
poor me
so that’s it
i’m sitting here
ankle throbbing
convinced i will be cured
and will get my groove on in my underpants tomorrow
positive thinking never hurt right?
