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and it’s over

thank God!!

after 48 hours of non stop feasting…this girl is done.

who knew i could put back so much food in such little time? lol

after today’s dinner…i just could not move.  at all.

i took pictures of dinner…but i just can’t bring myself to post them…i wonder if i will ever eat again!!

I hope everyone ate as well as i did, and that you had a wonderful Easter.

as for dessert…i coulda chomped on these cheeks all day long.  i mean look at that face!!!!

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smart food

is stupid.

i had another bowl of sweet and salty popcorn.

someone please come here and take the bag away…otherwise i will be at the gym every single day.

oy vay

hormones suck ass.

and smart food is the devil!

 

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sometimes you just gotta

today was filled with food that is on my no-no list

ya know, like potatoes…bread, beer, ice cream…oh and a banana lol

and… i don’t feel guilty in the least 🙂

’cause i spent my cheat day out in the sun, laughing and loving…and loving some more.

it’s life…sometimes restrictions shouldn’t exist.

sometimes…it’s just about love…and the moment.

hope your Sunday was as wonderful as mine 🙂

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muffin top

someone at work was kind enough to bring muffins in today.

i guess it being Friday and all.

not only were they nice enough to bring these in, but they were also kind enough to place them right beside my desk.

did i mention i am hungry?  starving actually.

did i mention that i actually went over to the box and contemplated munching on one???

oy vay.

i know they mean well…but c’mon.  that’s just mean!

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365 days – a year revisited

the number to the left is significant to me for several reasons.
one – it is my favourite number.  two – it is the day that i was born, and the third,
this is the amount of weight in pounds i have lost in the past 365 days.
18 pounds might not sound like anything much, but for me…it’s a lot.
and really this is about the journey.  what brought me right here.

the actual anniversary of my biggest life change is tomorrow.
but since i started this on a Monday…i thought it appropriate to reminisce today.

last year at this time…i made a life altering decision.  sure, initially i was forced into it…but it was the best push of my life.

last year at this time…i was tired.  I was so tired with the direction my life took, the decisions i was making, the people that i kept in my circle. tired of being sick.
i had had enough of everything that was negative and toxic in my life.  everything.
i was tired of crying all the time…feeling poorly about myself.  honestly…i felt so damn worthless.
all that toxicity was making me sad, depressed and very unhealthy.
i used food to make me feel better…and all it did was make me feel worse.

last year this time i remember sitting here…exactly where i sit now
a shell.
broken.
a total mess if i must be honest with you.
i hated the person i greeted in the mirror every single day.  and no it wasn’t just about the weight…it was about me.
everything i had become.
a person i didn’t like at all.

and there in that very moment began the letting go.
i did some major house cleaning.  i knew that i was better than the person i was representing.
better than everything i allowed in my life.
and so the letting go began.  in every single aspect of my life.
the fridge was immediately cleaned out.  anything and everything toxic was thrown away. all the toxic food was replaced with healthy, whole foods.
friendships were terminated…immediately.  although some had been over for some time…they took up residence in my head…and so phone numbers, old emails…all contact information to old toxic ghosts were also deleted.
i am not kidding when i say that within moments…i felt a shift within myself.

i was like a woman on fire.  i took everything so seriously.
my health was my top priority.

when i started to notice slight physical differences…i also noticed a shift in my mental health.
i was happier, i smiled more, had more energy, i started to love my life again, and in turn loved the people who were in it like they deserved to be loved.
everything seemed to go hand in hand.

when i finally introduced working out into my life…that is when the major differences started to show.
the shape of my body changed…my energy level was out of control…
and the rush i get from a good work out is still indescribable.

it was like i found a top secret happy combination…and there was no way i was letting it go.

not that it was always easy…because it wasn’t.  there were times i wasn’t happy with my results…how slow the changes seemed to be coming. i just wanted to give up.  i cannot tell you how vital my friendships, both in real life and in the blogging world were and still are to my successes.
each and everyone of you know who you are…and i thank you from the bottom of my itty bitty heart.

i don’t know how many inches I’ve lost…
but i am not afraid to tell you what size i used to be and the size i am now.

i went from a muffin top size 4  (really a size six) pants…and i am now a curvy size zero.
i went from a medium blouse to an extra small blouse.

my work out pants are an extra small.

i am 3 pounds away from my goal weight!!

i have attached a picture of my transformation…just to show people…before they feel the need to attack my size…that i am a healthy girl.
that sometimes when you are small boned…just tiny in stature…that a size zero is normal.
so please…i ask for no negative comments.  not today.
today is my day.

the first picture was taken 3 months in to my new lifestyle, when i took my solo trip to another country.  at this point i had already started working out and lost a bulk of my weight.  knowing that…i kinda cringe when i look at that picture.  i thought i was looking pretty damn good at that point…lol
my father god bless him –  loves this picture.  he likes me with a little chunk.
anyways…the only other before pic i really have was taken in my bra and underwear…and i would never have the guts to post that publicly anywhere..so the first picture will have to do.
so..take a look.  i think at least 15 of the pounds i lost were all boobie! lol

Since you have all been faithfully by my side through my journey this far…i want to share my results with you.
thank you for walking with me…i am so blessed to have met so many wonderful people through this blog.

As i type this blog out, the song “About Love” by Alicia Keys keeps playing in my head.

anywhoooo….

Happy Anniversary to me 🙂

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i’m so bad

i’m good 🙂

Since i am still on vacation mode until the end of today…i am gonna enjoy being bad…

and if i am gonna be bad…i am gonna go be baaaaaaad.

on today’s menu, is something i probably haven’t made in almost 2 years.

today i will be making my world-famous cannelloni. (yes, world famous…if you don’t believe me you should come over and have dinner with me!)
If you don’t know what that is, it’s pasta stuffed with spinach and ricotta cheese.

also..i shall be making a Caesar salad, and for dessert…ice cream.

tomorrow…i am back to hardcore baby, but today…today i’m going to be bad.

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oy vay

with all my red meat options out there….i decided on the salad bar tonight

and felt worlds better about my decision.

i am so tired of all the food here.  don’t get me wrong…i did love it, but i am so ready to get back to some sense of routine…and that would include a lifestyle of healthy eating and working out.

watching the sun set in texas has been an experience…one i could never describe in words actually.

the Capri’s and the flip-flops and the hospitality have been so very much-needed.

the beer…the southern cut french fries…and the ever-present red meat…oy…i need an intervention.

my driver hosted a party the other night…and made 20 rib eye steaks and 18 fajitas…told me i would never experience this hospitality anywhere else.  i would have to agree.  this of course was after his personal invite to me.  he welcomed me to his home with his family…after days of knowing me. 

i took in an amazing piece of american history last night.  scratch that…world wide history…as i made my way around down town Dallas…after another steak dinner.  i was actually surprised at my own reaction.  i fought the tears from falling…and i don’t really know why i became so emotional over JFK…other than the obvious.  to stand where he was killed…took me over, and surprised me.

i felt myself so caught up in the moment.  overwhelmed really.
so many pictures to prove it.

i am surrounded by amazing people.  and if my heart wasn’t so lonely for those i love the most…i could stay here forever…and eat steak and fried beer…and fried twinkies wrapped in bacon (ewwwwwww!)
and i would be a 300 pound hottie i tell you.

off i go.  i have a lake waiting for me. i have a lot of writing to do there.

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good god

oy vay

i blogged some time ago about my favourite eat at McDonald’s…
it’s the Southwest Salad and a large diet coke.
seriously that is like Christmas for me.

usually one night after the gym i will get that for dinner.
i think why not – it’s a salad right?
how bad can it be??

you wanna know how bad it can be?  just download the nutritional information from McDonald’s…see for yourself.
oh lord.
i don’t know what inspired me to do something that stupid.

i would have much preferred never knowing…and carrying on in my own little bubble.

ugh..what am i to do now?

and really…how dumb do i feel believing even fast food places have relatively healthy things on the menu????

i am hooked on these salads…how do i just stop??

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step away from the fridge

there is something sinister about working from home.
 
the fridge.
 
it’s right beside me.
 
i know one thing about myself and that is…i eat when i am bored…or when the food is an arm reach away
 
when i need a break from the computer…i just need to walk a couple of steps, open the fridge door…and voila
yum yums!
 
the great thing about low carb is…you really don’t need to watch your calories…unless of course losing weight has been a difficult journey…and so i can eat and eat and not feel too guilty..as long as it’s on plan.
 
buuuut, before i was low carbing…working from home was a terrible distraction. 
everything in that fridge was for the taking.
 
there are some devilish treats in the freezer.  chocolates straight from Switzerland…from my naughty, awesome friends
(thank you thank you!!!!)
i am surprised i haven’t ripped into those babies in my sleep!
on to something completely unrelated…i’ve joined the times.  i have added an rss feed app on to my ipod…so now i can stalk my favourite blogs anytime…some bed time reading perhaps?
off to check out the fridge
woop woop!

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because

i was never going to share a picture here, on line of myself.

it could be ’cause i was shy…or that i am aware that this is the internet…and anyone can see what i post.

but i have done a 180 tonight.  a realization that i just don’t give a damn.

why?

because i AM proud of my accomplishments

because despite everything i have been going through as of late, i have still been true to me

because it matters…alot.

because for once i can look at myself and feel…OK

because it’s always ok to strive and look ahead and want more

because i want to show you all, just how very proud i am of myself
my hard work
my ambition
my dedication
my trials and tribulations

because it matters.
every single bit of it.

all the tears, the nay sayers, the people who doubted me

all of it.

here i am, getting to where i want to be

and no one can bring me down
no one will make me stop.

because

because i am so worth it…and nothing anyone can say can change my mind.
you will never bring me down.

because this is what hope, success and hard work looks like

because i love all of you who have supported my journey.

i show you….me.  the real me.

because…for the first time in my life, i feel like me.

because i respect myself, and love myself.

and this is what it looks like.


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