who do you think is going to win me over???
really??? was there ever any doubt???
Hahahaha! Happy Friday kids 🙂
i have a serious case of spring fever!
i don’t know how it is where you are, but in my neck of the woods…the weather has been absolutely gorgeous.
i think we reached a high of 18 degrees today!!
unfortunately my life is so crazy busy, i don’t even have time to look out the window let alone go outside and actually enjoy it.
i was on the phone working, trying to eat some lunch and taking a peek out the window – wishing i could be outside, feeling the sun on my face.
oh well – mamma’s gotta make a living right???
at the end of the day i got in to my car – and the whole drive home i had the windows down
it was heaven.
i haven’t been to the gym this week. i had every intention of going…
but with weather like this – i couldn’t bare the thought of being indoors.
all the things i had to do were floating through my head. there was the general daily cleaning stuff still waiting for me
dinner had to be made, lunch and snacks etc etc etc
you know – i am going to make an amazing housewife some day 😉
so – i decided to go back to my original work out. my long walks.
this time i have my puppy as a companion – and she gives me a good run for my money let me tell you.
i live in such a beautiful part of the city – there is always something to see – some critter to meet.
i love it here…so i want to explore it as much as i can.
i am still sore from Zumba class the other night
my crazy instructor had me doing some crazy moves with my hips
crazy i tell ya
she’s crazy!!! (in a totally good way)
and in case you are wondering – nope…i still don’t have rhythm.
and yup…i still don’t care
i feel a walk in my whole body. i ache and am a little sore and i love it!
not only is it good for me…but it’s good for my crazy hyper puppy – who generally doesn’t get enough exercise during the week.
so it’s a win-win
the house is finally settled.
i am ready for my day tomorrow.
my neighbours are sitting outside relaxing by candlelight
i think i am going to pour myself a glass of wine and follow their lead
how could i not.
is amazing for the soul.
i had some family come stay with me this weekend
there is nothing like waking up to a smiling baby…happy and content with the world.
i don’t have alot to say…
i am just settling down from a lovely weekend.
so much baby love – i think my uterus is going to explode!
the biological clock sounds louder and louder every time i get my baby lovin’ fix.
it’s great being an auntie. amazingly awesome.
but i can’t help but wonder how much more amazing being a mother would be.
(i am sure i’ll get over it in a couple of days lol)
today – we had our first real taste of spring. 16 degrees (61F for my american peeps)
we decided to go for a long walk by the lake (awesome exercise)
it’s amazing how a little bit of sunshine can lift your spirits
it seems everyone was out enjoying the day, smiles painted on their faces
as if we all had discovered some big, unspoken secret.
it’s no secret.
spring is in the air.
and who isn’t in love with spring?
the cold is over, everything is coming to life….
the sun rediscovering your pale white skin.
there’s no secret.
a little bit of sunshine…amazing for a weary soul.
that’s where things are at these days.
i haven’t written lately, because there hasn’t been much to write about…in terms of low carb and working out that is.
i have been off track. maybe off track isn’t the right term…i’ve completely derailed in my journey to a smaller bee.
with Christmas, and then being sick, to other things, time has flown by and i cannot believe i am in to March and still trying to find my groove.
i have not been low carbing. i have also not been high carbing.
lately it’s been simple. i eat what i crave, what i feel will nourish my soul – and not so much my body.
you would be surprised at the things i crave – and i mean insanely crave.
i crave fruit, orange juice, whole grain bread.
and then more fruit..
and again more fruit.
i crave salads and veggies and then some more fruit
and chicken salad wraps – whole wheat.
i crave soups in a big way too.
no it’s not always that healthy. i won’t tell you about the pizza i ate at 10 pm the other night
or what about all the Ben and Jerry’s I ate when i was sick.
i also won’t tell you how natural and good it feels.
it’s not like i’ve completely strayed, but i have definitely allowed foods back into my life that i put on the deny list years ago.
i’ve come to a few realizations.
since upping my carbs – my headaches have decreased tremendously.
i am barely getting them anymore.
that in itself is a god send to me.
i’ve also realized that the foods i crave, still affect my body in a negative way
and sometimes i wonder if it’s worth it.
but it does pass…and before long i am feeling ok again.
and i have realized that this is just how my body is wired…and always will be.
i’ve also realized that since December, i haven’t gained much weight if any at all…
my clothes all fit – and i am still battling the same bulge i was in December.
i haven’t been to the gym in a month – and although there has been a little bit of self anger, i am really not feeling as bad as i thought i would.
the gym is not off the table. i plan on getting back to the swing of things this week.
i figure if i work out 3-4 times a week – maintain myself as i am (well i still want to lose the holiday pounds) i will be just fine.
i realized a few extra pounds on my body does not make me unworthy or less beautiful.
i realized i put too much stress on myself by feeling like i was always disappointing myself – and others.
but the biggest thing i have realized. sometimes the soul needs more nourishment than the body
that if your soul is broken, your body is too.
right now i am concentrating on my soul.
feeding it and nourishing that part of myself.
my soul needs more care than my body right now…
and so the plan is – there is no plan.
the plan is simple.
the plan is to take care of me – whatever that may entail.
where this leads in terms of “diet” – i have no idea. but for now, i am ok with that.