Monthly Archives: February 2012

starting over

i think i am ready.

after this cold completely knocked me on my ass for weeks
i think i am ready to get back to the way my life used to be.

starting next week, my priority will be getting back in to good physical health.

that means exercise at least 3-4 times a week.

this week i am managing 2 days.  which is better than nothing.

my eating is also going to be squeaky clean.

enough is enough.

i am currently on a huge clementine kick.  just imagining giving those up makes me want to cry.
thank god they are not in season for very long.

i am getting back to me again – it’s been too long.

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who stole my rhythm?

ok, so i never had any to begin with.

it’s been confirmed.

i have no rhythm.  this white girl cannot dance.  not even a bit.

i went to Zumba the other night and tried to follow all the gyrating moves…and really – i just looked ridiculous.
how do i know?
it could have something to do with the wall to wall mirrors.

if anything induces panic – it’s watching yourself jump around like a mad fool – and watch your body parts follow seconds later.

so not hot.

my instructor moves with ease.  She’s Brazilian so it makes sense…but some of those moves she does so naturally with her hips seem like they should be illegal.
my hips were not born to move that way
i am not Shakira.

i have got no rhythm, but i don’t care.

i am going to keep going – cause it’s so much fun and doesn’t even feel like exercise.

i just hope more women with zero rhythm show up and keep me company

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anxious

i am still alive…barely.

i’ve been knocked on my ass by an apparent sinus infection that is spreading to my chest.
it has not been fun.

i’ve been dealing with this for over a week now and am feeling anxious about all the time i have been missing at the gym – and not being able to get out there and be physical.

but i have zero energy.
even working from home has proved to be exhausting.

i am finally on antibiotics and i think they may be working, but they leave me so thirsty and light headed.
well it’s either the the antibiotics or the infection – i am not sure.

although i don’t have much of an appetite, the things i am eating are off plan.  i am trying not to get anxious over that because i think my body is craving these things to get better and heal.

i am overdosing on clementines and i have had comfort food like grilled cheeses (on multi grain bread) and of course some ben and jerry’s.

this makes me feel good – but anxious.

i try to be gentle with myself.  remind myself that there is tons of time for me to get to the gym and my Zumba classes once my body is healthy and strong.

for now i am taking care of it by listening to what it needs…and trying to get as much rest as i can.

as i rest and try to get better – my domestic stuff is falling by the wayside…and that makes me anxious too.

i really can’t afford to be sick.
but i am…
and i am trying not to feel so bloody anxious.

just wanted to stop by and let you all know that i am still alive…barely lol

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