i cannot believe a year has gone by…seriously where did 2011 go???
tomorrow is the big day.
yup…it’s the great weigh in of 2011.
i have my physical.
it’s been at least 10 months since i’ve weighed myself.
i don’t know if i’m nervous or indifferent.
i have such a love hate relationship with numbers i think that any outcome will affect me!!
i still fit into the same clothes as i did last year – so i know i’ve maintained my weight.
i still eat healthy – well for the most part…i can’t remember the last time i had a cheat -oh yes i do…anyways…it was a while ago. i still work out – although i haven’t had time for the gym as of late.
i suspect the number i will see will be about the same as last year.
last year i asked him not to tell me my exact weight but to just tell me the difference
apparently he didn’t hear that because he just blurted out the number and let me sit in my own trauma
this year i want to know. i don’t know why…but really it won’t make a difference to me.
i am still going to do what i am doing…i am still going to try to be the best bee that i can be
and that is good enough.
a number is not going to change that.
sure there might be tears and some screaming…
i kid 🙂
i may report back here – i may not
it depends on how badly i’ve been damaged.
i am writing down things i want to discuss as well – priority being these damn headaches – yes…they are still here
funny how the list keeps getting longer the older you get
i am going to work from home tomorrow and try to maintain a zen state.
i’m only half serious…i am not all that concerned about the scale…
or maybe this is the calm before the storm
if you don’t hear from me for a few days send a search party – and make sure they got chocolate!