so i saved the worst part of my shopping for my trip for today
the dreaded bikini shopping.
i went alone. really, i don’t need to have a nervous breakdown around anyone do i??
it was horrible. horrible is probably an understatement.
and i came up with this:
if i up my working out from 3 days a week to 7
my one hour to 3 hours a day
never ever even think of eating a bite of anything off plan
i may just be ready for next years big bikini outting
it’s defeat that i feel.
complete and utter defeat.
like what have i worked so damn hard for…for almost a year and a half????
i am not saying i haven’t been successful…because i know that i have
but i am no where near where my head thought i would be
and it kinda hurts
and it kinda just makes me think why bother.
kind of makes me just want to throw in the towel.
i won’t – but this bikini business does not put me in a good mind set let me tell ya
what i saw going on in the mirror – no one needs to see…so no worries – pictures will not follow!