sensitive

that’s how i’m feeling.

alot’s gone down these past few days and i am just left feeling a little raw and perhaps needy?
no, needy is not the word
sensitive. definitely sensitive.

i am analyzing every little thing said to me…and taking offense to things i shouldn’t be i am sure.
i am ultra sensitive…and i dislike feeling this way.

i wasn’t going to post here – but it’s got pretty much everything to do with my health…so it seems appropriate.

i’ve made some changes to my personal life lately.
well, i was forced into making these changes, and ultimately it is the best thing for me.
and i am ok with the changes ahead of me.

after all, life is about change.

but i still feel sensitive…

getting up to go to the gym today was a struggle.  it seems it has been lately yes?
perhaps my body knew all along what my mind was not ready to register.
who knows

i want to revert back to old behaviours…because they are old and comfortable
like a childhood blankie…or a hug from my mom.

i want to run to the corner store and grab a bag of dill pickle chips and a pint of Ben and Jerry’s

at least i have enough mind power to understand that although these are comforting foods for the moment
they are anything but comforting afterwards.

i am grateful for my willpower these days.

inhale and exhale.

everything’s gonna be alright.

everything’s gonna be better in 2 days when i am officially on vacay.
there, that totally put a smile on my face.

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5 thoughts on “sensitive

  1. paulbentley

    Hi Bee. I found your blog through DavidisFat. Well, actually, he aint so fat any more 🙂

    Keep going and push through these difficult days. They happen to us all, but, like you say, you have willpower! You’ve already proven so much to yourself so you can get through this.

    Paul

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    1. losing bee Post author

      haha! nope he is not fat 🙂 thanks for stopping by and offering encouraging words – i do appreciate that. i can’t wait to check out your blog!

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  2. jmjbookblog

    I’m glad I was at my daughter’s so I could get on your blog today. I hope that you are feeling less sensitive and just keeping focused on the fact you will be on vacation in two days…woooo hooooo!!! I hope you have an absolutely AWESOME vacation and that rest and relaxation will rejuvenate you and you will be ready to kick A$$! Hugs, Jay

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