I had a conversation with someone the other day
It was ironic since the conversation we had, was a topic that has been plaguing my brain for some time.


For some reason I have noticed the passing of time as of late.
It seems like everything is flying by and I am so perplexed!  When did all this happen?
Why is the passing of time so heavy on my mind?

My niece, surely she can’t be almost 3.  Wasn’t it just yesterday I was waiting ever so patiently to meet her?

I spoke to my godmother yesterday.  Again, it can’t be 3 years that I have spoken to her can it?  I am blessed she still knows my name and recognizes my voice…but will it be that way a year from now?
we all know how quickly a year passes.

That friend…who surely I just saw not too long ago… has it really been over 6 months since I’ve seen her?

People that you thought you’d never live without – time passes and life goes on.

Hearts break, hearts ache…
And time has the miraculous ability to make them whole.

Death, sadness, tears….you do learn how to smile again.

This is the nature of time.

Where is this going?  Not too sure lol
This is what’s been on my mind lately.  How time seems to be flying at warp speed and I would like it to slow down just a little.
I mean am I not still 27?  Say it ain’t so!!

And so, the conversation I had the other day had me thinking about time even more.

A lovely lady asked me if I was afraid that I was “wasting my time”
Isn’t life for living?

She was referring to my routine.  Going to the gym, eating healthy.
Is it worth it …investing so much of your time – wasting your life like that?

It still bothers me – that statement – wasting your life.

For over 30 years I was wasting my days – obviously not every single day of my life.
But I wasted a lot of time.
A lot of time being sad, unhealthy, stagnant.
I also spent a lot of time being happy, healthy and go, go, go.

Nothing is wasted.  Not an ounce of this precious life that I have been gifted with will go to waste.

I live the way I live…to live as long as possible.  To take as much time as I can get.

I want the odds to be in my favour.  I know you can never know when your time is up…but I sure as hell would like to do anything in my power to hang around and find out.

I have a lot of life left in me.  A lot of spunk to share.

So lady I had the conversation with – no.  my life is not wasted.
My life is rich and full of so much potential.
Eating healthy and working out will never be a waste…if anything…maybe I am slowing down time.

I am sorry that your knees hurt…and you are over weight.
I am sorry that you don’t have the energy to take a brisk walk
I am sorry that you are border line diabetic.
I am sorry that you “just can’t stop” eating cookies and chocolate.
I am sorry that you feel the need to ask me how I can eat meat…while you are digging in to your plate of fries. (wow)

I wish you understood how much more energy you would have, if you just made some different choices
I wish you knew how just some small changes…would change your world as you know it.
But that’s not for me to tell you…that’s for you to want.  That’s for you to figure out in your own time.

No…I’m not wasting my time.
You on the other hand…

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5 thoughts on “time

  1. jmjbookblog

    I’m sure the person who made that remark to you was saying what was in her heart about her own life…she most surely realizes she is wasting time but sadly doesn’t have the motive to do something about it..all one can do is say a silent prayer…wish them well…and live our lives to the fullest. I miss not having the time to be blog right now…but your post made me think of a saying I once heard…life is like a roll of toilet paper…the closer you get to the end…the faster it goes! 🙂 But if you are enjoying life to the fullest…it doesn’t matter does it? 🙂

    1. losing bee Post author

      hiya jm 🙂 love the toilet paper saying lol
      i think you are 100% bang on about her. she is a lovely woman but i think she is stuck in a rut and instead of trying to change she just stays where she is.
      the evil you know is better than the evil you don’t know!

  2. Maxine's Daughter

    yeah, dear – try explaining to your PCP that you are less concerned with your FBS of 105 and A1C of 6.0 that you DO NOT have diabetes while you feel like you have an AXE sticking out of your poor worn out lower back with bulging disks!!!!! Maybe if you’d authorize me to get my back fixed, my other crap would fall back into place. You know dear doctor, CHRONIC PAIN gets everything out of kilter….I am NOT giving up – I’m just getting more militant….I want what I need and I want it now.!!!! Thanks for listening….i’m getting closer to an actual appointment with a surgeon……after about six weeks of farting around with diagnostics and physical thereapy… lol


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