Daily Archives: June 15, 2011

stress eating

i got some upsetting and completely unexpected news before lunch time
nothing i care to get in to here
but lets just say…it left me feeling stressed out, anxious and defeated.
completely.

i don’t deal well with stress.
i either bottle it up inside or try to nurture myself with food.

i had this upsetting conversation right before lunch.

i went downstairs and suddenly all logic and common sense disappeared

they were serving these:

and so i ate them.  to feel better.  ’cause you know how that works.

i don’t feel better.  actually i am pretty sure i feel worse.
and sleepy
throw my guilt in to the mix and you got one awesome bee.

ugh.  i guess i will be working my ass off tonight…literally.

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water for elephants

going to the gym with GB is fun
it always has been.
i have no issues going to the gym alone – i go alone about twice a week
i am no longer concerned with who is there or who is looking at me
i could care less

but it seems like time goes on forever when i am alone.

when GB and i are together…she does her own thing while i am doing my weights
but we meet afterwards and do the elliptical together
so we talk, laugh and catch up on the day
and before you know it our half hour is up.

when i am alone, a half hour seems like a lifetime.

Sometimes there is music on in the gym…but most times there isn’t.
i seem to go to the gym at the same time another regular goes
and he sets all the tv’s on the sci-fi channel…and honestly…i’d rather watch paint dry.

i have started bringing the ipod to my work outs when i am alone
i am constantly reminding myself to use my inside voice when i have those headphones in
because my natural instinct tells me to break out in song.

so now i’ve started to think about other things i can do while i am getting my sweat on.

i love to read.  i mean big love.
but really…i have no time.  none.
i get into bed at night and attempt to pick up my book…and i am out like a light
i’ve been wanting to finish The Girl Who Played With Fire for months now.
it’s just not going to happen. not at a fast pace anyways.

So i started to think…
maybe i should download an audio book.  listen to a book while i am working out!
best of both worlds yes?

I purchased Water for Elephants over the weekend (the movie)
I’ve been wanting to read the book for ages.  Reese Witherspoon is in the movie…and i love her crazy.  say what you will about her, i don’t care…i love me some Reese and will watch any movie she is in…corny or not.
BUT – i really want to read the book first.  I am weird like that.  if any movie has a book – i prefer the book first.

So i downloaded the book – Water for Elephants and off i went to the gym.


At first it was so hard to get in to it.  My mind constantly wanders…i drift off in thought all the time.
so imagine listening to a book and then your mind wanders away.  it’s so easy NOT to concentrate at the gym!

So i did my best to stay focused…and finally i was able to actually listen and retain.  go me!!!
i got in to it so much that i went 10 minutes longer than usual on my elliptical.

this is perfect!!!  i am getting my “reading” done and burning calories.

I am off to the gym tonight alone – and now i am totally ok with it…cause i want to listen to the book.

going to the gym is like being in a relationship – always thinking of ways to keep things fresh and new lol
good times 🙂

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