i had an amazing day.
i got a lot accomplished…but that included eating things that are soooo not on my menu.
you know how it goes. you feel like you can conquer the world…and anything goes.
i had amazing company…and life felt amazing…so carbs suddenly became ok as a staple on the menu.
i am tortured tonight…and reminded why i do what i do and why i do it.
as awesome as it is to see the pounds melt off of me…and to see my body changing…
i was reminded why i eat the way i do.
i was reminded that it never had a thing to do with being “skinny”.
i am tortured tonight…because i decided today would be the day i would stray from my “diet”
tonight i was reminded that this is NOT a diet…but a way of life…the way that my life needs to be in order to live in accordance to my body and my heart….and my poor belly.
it’s not worth the pain…not worth the back and forth in my head.
sooo not worth this pain that leaves me aching in the fetal position.
sometimes…only sometimes…i wish carbs were not the enemy.