Daily Archives: February 3, 2011

not gonna happen

there are just some things i won’t give up to get to size sexy bitch
 
i think in the past, giving things up that i loved, was the reason for my demise.
the reason the skinny walls came crumbling down.
 
like i blogged last night…i got my new bras
and even though they are sexy sexy sexy
i still have a long way to go to feel as sexy as they look
know what i mean?
 
anyways…these are things i will not give up.  nope. not ever…even for size sexy bitch.
 
i know i’ve blogged here before about my crazy diet coke addiction.
not just diet coke.  fountain diet coke from McDonald’s…that indeed is my crack.
i could drink it every single day..no problem – but i don’t.
but i could.
and i won’t stop…and you can’t make me.
living right beside a McDonald’s makes it all the more tempting
(yes, that means my gym is right beside McDonald’s too lol)
i gotta tell you…i am a little sick.  sometimes i just want a salad from there to give me a reason to get the diet coke.
i’m not stopping.  nuh-uh.
 
Coffee.
never gonna happen.
you may appreciate that if you have ever been around me without a cup of coffee in my system.
I gave up coffee back in the day for about 2 weeks.
worst 2 weeks of my life…and probably for those who had to deal with me.
i had the worst headache and was in the worst mood.
i love my coffee.  i don’t think i over do it…i don’t drink copious amounts…
but it’s my drug in the morning….and my 2nd wind when i hit the 3 o’clock wall at work.
 
Wine.
need i say more???
lol
i am aware that it’s pretty high in calories
but i don’t care. tis true.  i care not.
a glass of wine in the evening – especially in the winter is a necessity…a survival staple
besides, my doctor strongly encourages me to drink
when i told him i enjoy my glass of red..he said i could enjoy 2 if i wanted
i think my doctor rocks.
he might be a closet alcoholic…but i love him
lol
 
if i were to say no to these things…do you know how miserable i would be?
i understand the concept of losing weight and being healthy…i do
but with the knowledge that i can never have something ever again…well that is indeed a recipe for failure.
 
and that goes with everything else.
the word NO does not exist for me.
instead i live by not now, not today, not necessary
 
i have not banned any form of bread, rice, pasta from my life
i simply have no desire to eat it.
but i can if i wanted to.
and simply giving myself that choice, makes me not want it at all.
 
just the other night i had a sub on a whole wheat 9 grain bun
it was delish – and not the worst thing i could eat.
it was after 2 days of wanting…so on the 3rd day i had it.  obviously my body was craving something in it yes?
 
anyways that’s my story.
size sexy bitch is attainable – without giving up everything and anything you love
plus…going to the gym now gives me more room for some sinful pleasures.
 
that is all.
now someone please get me a diet coke?!

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