Monthly Archives: February 2011

tonight

this was my dinner tonight:

if you are wondering what it is…well, it’s steak, steamed broccoli and mashed cauliflower.  nowhere in Canada have i ever seen mashed cauliflower as an option.  oh, and of course a glass of red 🙂

this was what i was looking at while i chilled on a patio.  On a patio people!!

I’m a happy Bee…a happy Bee indeed.  even my toes are happy!

and of course…the view that greets me:

sharing is caring…and i shall share a lot more at the blog next door 🙂

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life is sweet

i went to the gym yesterday after not being there all week.
i won’t lie – it was quite the struggle.

if there is one thing i learned and confirmed it’s that the gym needs to be a constant.
i understand how easy it is to say no and not go…but it feels so much better to say yes.

i huffed and i puffed, but in true bee fashion i totally kicked ass 🙂
i am a little sore today, but it’s the good sore.
i love that muscly good work out sore.
wooohoo!!

but that’s just the way life is.  i mean i would love to keep to a consistent schedule
but sometimes it’s hard.
the next few weeks of my life i am flying by the seat of my pants…but i have every intention of fitting the gym in
perhaps not 4 days a week, but i will get my butt to a gym at some point.

the first thing i did before i booked my hotel was check to see if they have a fitness room
and they do…and it’s perdy.
if i can’t make it to the gym because i am too busy getting sun kissed and swimming and checking out the sights…i will forgive myself.
🙂
i don’t even think i fit my summer clothes, but meh…i can always buy something cuter!
life is sweet.
all about that at the blog next door.

ya know, the gym makes me feel like a new woman – it really does.
it’s like my body is telling me thank you for taking care of it.
today while getting a mani and pedi i had the same feel good moment.
life is sweet.

did i say that already? lol

my life is freakin’ sweet.  i wouldn’t change a damn thing.

hope everyone is having an awesome weekend!

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turbo pants

i was going to blog about my night last night
but then heard about these pants on the radio
and well…the pants totally trumped what i was going to talk about.
 
have you heard of these pants?
they are called Turbo Pants.
there are a couple of pictures of these on the link i am posting at the end.
 
apparently these pants are made with 3 layers…i believe 2 of them being cotton and one rubber.
anyways these pants promote weight loss…and have been a huge success in Europe.
 
from what i understand, these pants are skin tight.  even putting them on makes you look 2 inches smaller.
talk about skinny jeans doing their job.
 
these pants apparently cause you to lose weight.
why?
well as they said on the radio…they promote “fluid leakage”
umm….ewwww.
 
these pants are so tight and multi layered that of course you are gonna lose fluid…you’ll be sweating in them all day.
they also say these pants will massage your skin and so in turn they will reduce cellulite.
its soft cotton feels good on your skin.
 
you can wear these anywhere.  you can work out in them…wear them in the office…
you can wear them for 8 hours straight.  but i ask…can you breathe in them???
seriously…who would want to wear them????  can you imagine sitting in your own “fluid leakage”?  sweating in places you would rather not sweat?
ugh…i am so grossed out.
 
they also recommend that you wash these pants after every use.
you think???
dis-gust-ting.
 
the one pair i saw, retailed at about 250 bucks…craaaaaazy.
 
and i am sure that alot of people will buy into this weight loss gimmick.
 
people!!!!!  weight loss doesn’t just happen.  have you not figured this out already?
how many people do you think will buy these pants and eat a crap load of junk and pray for a miracle??
smarten up people!!
take your 250 bucks and join the gym!
 
give me my sweat pants…and let me go work out…i prefer to leak my fluids that way.
not sit in my own juices for 8 hours.
 
baaahhhh.
 
i am completely grossed out.
 
if you want to read more about it….click here.


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heaven

Heaven is…

your bff bringing you a Chai Latte from Starbucks (cause she knows you love it and haven’t had it in well over a year…and thinks after the week you’ve had you deserve it)

and then also giving you a small bottle of warm vanilla brown sugar hand sanitizer from Bath and Body – again, just cause she knows you love it…and it makes you squeal like a school girl.

what a way to make my day…
i luh her 🙂

and what a total inspiration to get my butt to the gym tonight!
bad, bad chai latte, but ohhhh so good!

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no worries

i’m still alive 🙂

i am finally in my jammies after two extremely long, hectic, crazy days.

i am barely alert…so i dunno what you should expect from me.

two days of not being “here”… i thank those that sent me messages.  all is well…i have just been insanely busy.

being out of my element proved to be a struggle and extremely joyful.

socially i couldn’t have asked for better people to spend my time with….
but i was on someone elses clock, and had to fly by the seat of my pants…

which meant food was a huge issue.
huge.

food was made, and as a guest…it would have been rude to make a special request
and so i sucked it up and tried to be as “good” as i could be.
it was slim pickins.

so there was the food, that i really shouldn’t be eating….coupled with the fact that there was no gym
well…the guilt was pretty huge.

sigh.

i mean i wasn’t stagnant by any means…but i was so completely off my own routine, my own kitchen, my own element
it was a marriage of so many different emotions….i just didn’t know how to deal with it all.

life happens….and it was great these past two days.
my cheeks still hurt from laughing…and my feet so sore from all the walking.

and so now…i guess i just suck it up…and accept it for what it is.
it’s just the way life goes sometimes.

i’ll get over it…and this glass of wine is sure helping.

i am off to get a well deserved good nights sleep…because the next two weeks will be equally insane, if not worse.
oy vay.

and how have all of you lovelies been?

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good god

oy vay

i blogged some time ago about my favourite eat at McDonald’s…
it’s the Southwest Salad and a large diet coke.
seriously that is like Christmas for me.

usually one night after the gym i will get that for dinner.
i think why not – it’s a salad right?
how bad can it be??

you wanna know how bad it can be?  just download the nutritional information from McDonald’s…see for yourself.
oh lord.
i don’t know what inspired me to do something that stupid.

i would have much preferred never knowing…and carrying on in my own little bubble.

ugh..what am i to do now?

and really…how dumb do i feel believing even fast food places have relatively healthy things on the menu????

i am hooked on these salads…how do i just stop??

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amusing

i find it really funny…

that while i am on the elliptical at the gym, working my butt off to burn calories

that the tv to the left of me is showing the new show “Heavy”, and the tv to the right of me is on the Food Network

oh the irony!

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i’m a chicken

that is what i am
a chicken

remember when i joined the gym a month ago i was tres excited about the classes?
i couldn’t wait to dive in and fill my nights with class after class?

well i haven’t taken a class yet…and i am not too sure if i ever will!

there were weekends where i woke up early enough to attend some classes, but would panic at the last second and just go to the gym and work out.

i didn’t just come to the decision to be “afraid”
no-no, the instructors put the fear in me.

there have been a couple of times that i have been at the gym working out
and there has been a class going on at the same time.

with the room being relatively close to the room i work out in…i can hear pretty much everything.

the classes i heard were not pleasant-sounding.
these instructors must have taken some Hitler 101 courses…cause they were yelling at people…
and not just randomly yelling…yelling at people individually.

see…that just doesn’t work for me.

i don’t want to be singled out…and i really don’t want to be yelled at.
i am a sensitive soul lol

i want to be like a chameleon and blend in to my surroundings.
not called out on everything i CAN’T do
nuh – uh
no thank you.
i just want to take a class and do it at my own pace, my own comfort level…until i know what the hell i am doing

i get the whole pushing your physical limits.

but i am afraid i am way too chicken to put myself in that situation.

i am still debating the yoga classes
i am sure Hitler doesn’t run those.
and if she does…that’s some new kind of yoga people!

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thinking thoughts

my mind is in over drive
i love it when i decide to blog when my brain is mental.
thought i’d give the blog next door a breather lol
 
my one year is coming up…it’s actually right around the corner
and i am not sure why this is making me feel anxious.
it shouldn’t…there is no need to feel anxious, or nervous etc…
but hey it is what it is.
 
i guess i think…ok, now what??
it’s like i gave myself a year to succeed…and then…whatever.
 
what i envisioned last year…is not where i am today.
in some aspects i am well ahead of anywhere i thought i’d ever be
and then in other ways…i feel a little behind.
everything balances out…and i am perfectly fine with where i am
 
i know i have been serious since day one.
i was on a mission and there was no room for failing.
i do not have an off button, so if my sights are set on something…there is no stopping me.
i am like that in everything i do.  if i want something…i go until i get it.
if i lack interest…meh…i can’t be bothered.
i am like that with things i do and with people in my life.
if i love you…you know it…if i don’t…you know it too lol
 
what the hell is the point of this blog anyways?
 
i guess i am just being reflective.
a whole year (almost) has flown by at warp speed.
and although i was committed from the get go…i feel like i really started stepping things up half way through the year (i am specifically speaking about working out)
 
and so the year anniversary is almost here…
just over a week away.
i guess it feels like a closure…and i must remind myself that it so is not.
if anything it’s another beginning.
more goals to set, re-evaluate.
another year of firsts.
 
no it’s so not an ending.
this will never end.
it’s the next chapter of this journey.
and perhaps this too is what makes me anxious.
 
i look at myself and feel things i never felt about myself before
i am proud of me
getting dressed in the morning is no longer depressing and a struggle
i’ve changed in ways i never thought was possible.
the biggest thing being the gym.  wanting to go to the gym, wanting to push myself, wanting to feel the burn
this was not me for 30 some odd years…and now this is me…the real me.
 
maybe that’s the thing.
i am so different now. i’ve changed so much…
i wonder if those i haven’t seen for a long time would even recognize my insides, never mind my outsides!
 
cause that’s one thing i learned
transformation isn’t only physical.  it’s internal.
it changes you mind set, it changes your soul.
and you slowly become that someone you were always intended to be.
 
and i love the gradual, slow paced changes
i love every part of this…even the times i am so deflated and discouraged
that i become a puddle on the floor.
because i learn
and my lord the things i have learned
that’s it…just wanted to write it out lol
 
if you have read this far…i thank you

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i am so in love

with the gym!
it’s true…i can’t even believe i said it, but there is no use in denying the truth.
 
i picked it up a few notches last night
and what i mean by a few…is ALOT.
 
my whole life i have hated the elliptical.
and i think that the word hate is an understatement.
 
even hating it…i did purchase one years ago believing that if i owned one, i would have to use it.
sure at the beginning of that love affair i was on it.
i hated it.  i dreaded it.  15 minutes seemed like a lifetime.
it didn’t matter if i was watching tv, or listening to music.  i just hated it.
if i could have had a glass of wine in one of my hands perhaps i would have felt differently at the time lol
it became my closet of sorts…or my hamper.
it was a fancy clothes holder, that’s what it was.
 
so when i went for my assessment at the gym, my personal trainer said i should be able to work myself up to an hour on the elliptical.
she said this after getting me to do it for 3 minutes.
i thought – whatever lady.  stop the crack.
 
the other day i thought i would give it a go.  i was on it for 35 minutes
and….
i loved it.
i am not too sure what changed inside of me…to actually say that i enjoy it…
i really don’t know.
i loved everything about it.  the jello legs, the heavy breathing…the sweating…
(i am talking about the gym people, not bedroom antics – mind outta the gutter!)
 
so back to the gym i went yesterday.
did all my ab work out and weights and hopped on the elliptical
which to my great joy (NOT) is right in front of a mirror.
 
all of a sudden i heard that jerk in my head telling me i wouldn’t be able to succeed without him training me etc.
i kept hearing that sing song voice in my head that i should be able to do it for an hour…
so off i went.
different things flashed through my head…like all the cute bikinis that will be coming out this season…my trip to Texas, summer, cute clothes
and i kept going and going…
and i kid not when i say it was not even a struggle.
 
i didn’t do an hour on the elliptical.  i did an hour and one minute.
eat that jerk face.
 
and i felt freakin’ amazing…i could have kept going…but i didn’t
 
a couple of hours later…trying to get up from the couch was fun
my knees ached something fierce…
i didn’t think much of it…
 
i woke up in the middle of the night to get a drink
and i felt like i was just hit by a car.  and i have personal experience with that feeling…
i felt like i blew out my knees!!!  crazy.  and not fun.
 
i woke up this morning…feeling not bad at all.  my knees are a little sore…as is most of my body – especially my lower back.
but i feel amazing.
 
i cannot describe how i felt after my work out yesterday.
it’s an unexplainable high…like a drug.
i see how people get addicted to working out…because at the end of it all…you just feel so absolutely amazing.
 
why didn’t i discover this sooner??? 

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