because

i was never going to share a picture here, on line of myself.

it could be ’cause i was shy…or that i am aware that this is the internet…and anyone can see what i post.

but i have done a 180 tonight.  a realization that i just don’t give a damn.

why?

because i AM proud of my accomplishments

because despite everything i have been going through as of late, i have still been true to me

because it matters…alot.

because for once i can look at myself and feel…OK

because it’s always ok to strive and look ahead and want more

because i want to show you all, just how very proud i am of myself
my hard work
my ambition
my dedication
my trials and tribulations

because it matters.
every single bit of it.

all the tears, the nay sayers, the people who doubted me

all of it.

here i am, getting to where i want to be

and no one can bring me down
no one will make me stop.

because

because i am so worth it…and nothing anyone can say can change my mind.
you will never bring me down.

because this is what hope, success and hard work looks like

because i love all of you who have supported my journey.

i show you….me.  the real me.

because…for the first time in my life, i feel like me.

because i respect myself, and love myself.

and this is what it looks like.


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12 thoughts on “because

  1. jamie

    Beautiful you. You should be proud of yourself. I’m amazed that you’ve stayed on track despite all the chaos and heartbreak in your life recently. Way to go, Bee!!! xoj

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  2. Maria Cosby

    Wow! Well, you look amazing, certainly not like somebody who is losing weight. I’ve lost 70 so far and have another 20 to go. I know I don’t know you, but I feel your pride and I share your joy. 🙂

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    1. losing bee Post author

      thanks tlf 🙂 although i accomplished alot this is not my after photo – yet! i think i am done trying to lose weight (although i have a couple of xmas pounds i need to get rid of) now my biggest issue is toning…it’s a very hard and slow process

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  3. jmjbookblog

    You have always come across on your blog as a truly beautiful person on the inside and now I see you are just as beautiful on the outside! 🙂 And you’re just a little bitty young’un! 🙂 You look absolutely awesome! I have to start doing that Turbo Jam more! 🙂 I hope the New Year shines down on you, bee, and all your dreams come true in 2011! Bless you and your loved ones! 🙂

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  4. azzig49

    dear Bee – you are beautiful inside and outside – like me the outside is finally caught up to what was always in there in the first place. we love you, but most important – YOU LOVE YOU. But Girl, you are TOTALLY ROCKING. OMG – wish i were your age again!!! But then, I DID save myself on the brink…Happy Happy Happy NEW YEAR.

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