i’ve been dreaming about running lately.
not like in an i’m being chased kind of way, or running away from something/someone – which is quite the reality of my dream nature…
but running as in….wanting to run…being active…choosing to run.
i think it has a lot to do with that inspirational post i put up last week
mr. ben who ran his way to losing over 120 pounds.
although i gotta say that his bloody nipples make me second guess my desire to run!
i used to be really active…many many moons ago.
back in school i loved participating in sports.
i kicked ass in high jump – all 5’1 of me, i loved basketball, track and field.
i used to willingly get out of bed really early in the morning to go running.
those days feel almost like a fantasy than part of my reality.
my running days ended when i got hit by a car. twice.
my legs have never been the same.
i mean even walking sometimes, my ankles will lock up and landing on my face is very much a real fear of mine.
so i gave up running, took up smoking and became a lazy teenager.
since i have been working out, and walking…i feel so much stronger
thinking back i cannot recall a time where my ankles locked…in 5 miles of straight walking.
and so i have started thinking of running.
the weather is getting much colder…and i won’t lie. i hate the cold.
i wonder how i will walk once it’s winter….because i know myself…and i just don’t do winter.
and so i am thinking about getting a treadmill.
this way i can keep walking…and start running again…in the comfort of my own home
and if my ankles give out…at least i won’t be making an ass outta myself in front of other people.
i am really excited about this idea!!
but…i think my life is about to get crazy busy soon.
in such a kick ass, wonderful…amazing way.
so my brilliant idea may need to be put on hold.
on hold, but not forgotten.