slight glitch

so i’ve been a work out machine over the past few months

the odd part of it all?

i am loving it. i think that “loving” could be an understatement actually

it’s the highlight of my day – almost every single day

i am in love with Shaun T and his Cize dvd’s
seriously i cannot get enough

So over the weekend
i was wired. i don’t know where my energy came from
but i had a lot of it

i worked out for 2 hours on the Saturday
and i felt amazing

Sunday i did another hour and a half
and when i was done
my ankle just felt “off”

so i did what any other sane person would do
and did another hour on Monday

by the end of that work out
i was in pain
soooo much pain

i managed to get myself showered – and almost fell going up the stairs

i could barely put any weight on my foot

look down…and my ankle had been replaced by a softball
or so it seemed

and what did i do the next day?
loaded up on advil – bought an ankle support thingy – hobbled the whole day through
and still intended on working out
(how i am not really sure)

it didn’t happen

i ended up going to the walk in on wednesday
i could have swore something was cracked in there

(i should mention, i parked two blocks away…on purpose…to get more exercise – yes even though i believed i might have a fractured ankle.  i’m a sad human)

after a few xrays – i was all clear
no fracture

just a bad sprain – caused by the bad sprain i had a couple years ago

no working out for at least a week

what??!?!?!

the doc said i was able to go on walks though

ok….
so i will walk

10k is not considered a work out is it?

cause that’s what i was going to do. that night i got dressed…not giving a damn what i looked like
(and i looked ahhhmazing)

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i started my very fast paced 10k

until i stopped

and managed 4k
4k too many i think

because wow – by the time i got home
i had tears in my eyes
and couldn’t even get myself to the couch

advil and ice
my new best friends

but the problem my friends is….

i just can’t sit still

so i did it again tonight

i debated working out – but talked myself out of it

took a new scenic route today
and almost cried

i’d say about 60% of that walk was on an incline
and my ankle doesn’t seem to like it that much

but i made it

barely

i’m stretched out on my couch
icing my poor excuse for an ankle

feeling somewhat defeated
but thinking of ways to still get my groove on

you know what’s a little frightening?

i am getting more exercise with a bummed out ankle
than i was just a few months ago
when i was physically capable
almost twice as much from what my fitbit is telling me

another scary thought?

i’ve been at this for quite some time
and don’t really notice a physical difference
which is really defeating
other people have commented
but the weight loss is excruciatingly sloooowwwwww

it’s true
the older you get
the harder it is to drop the weight
and that’s a sad sad realization
when i know i will be in a bathing suit in about a month

poor me

so that’s it

i’m sitting here
ankle throbbing
convinced i will be cured
and will get my groove on in my underpants tomorrow

positive thinking never hurt right?

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no rest for the weary

in my new found love for working out
i allow myself two rest days a week

i think 5 days a week is good enough

sunday is my dedicated day of rest
just a day for myself
to do whatever i want – which normally would never ever include me willingly wanting to work out

i slept in this morning
woke up and had my coffee
caught up on line
and then it happened

i wanted to work out

what?

i’ve become addicted to the latest workout by Shaun T
Cize

if you haven’t heard about it you need to google it now!!
(go on, i’ll wait)

basically he teaches you dance moves and at the end of it all you rock out your new routine to a popular song

i got stuck on a certain level – couldn’t quite get the moves down
so now i was challenged.

so – ya
i worked out for an hour and 20 minutes all before lunch

i nailed all the dance moves
and punched myself in the face – i couldn’t make that up if i tried
i am a white girl with zero rhythm – and very accident prone

i hit my 10000 goal step before lunch!

sunday fitbit

i love that my body is remembering how much it loves exercising

i also think that my brain might be in a bit of panic mode
ya know, bikini time is right around the corner

my day wasn’t restful – but i loved every sweaty minute of it

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my mojo

i’ve been trying… for a very long time
to find my mojo

to find the thing that makes me want to be a better version of myself

it sounds pretty simple

you want to be a better version of you?

ok – so do something about it

i mean on paper it all adds up

but to put in to action – a whole other story

but the thing is
i know exactly what i need to do

and i constantly do the very opposite

i didn’t so much make a new years resolution
but i set up goals for myself

this year, i decided that as much as finances would allow
i wanted to travel
i wanted to see parts of the world i have never seen – and revisit places that made me feel whole

and i wanted to travel solo
facing my fears and seeing the world

so three weeks ago i decided on my first destination

one that is going to require me to be in a bikini for 2 weeks

i am just waiting for work to approve my time off
then i am going to book my flight

nothing gets you more motivated than that!

it’s been 3 weeks and i already feel the difference in me

clothes are fitting looser
“bad” foods aren’t even a thought

and i have 5 months to rock a bikini

i have finally found my mojo

who knew
it was hiding
in a bikini?

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she’s no longer the one

she’s on her way!!!

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yes. i did it. i’ve been eyeing this baby for a long time
and finally decided to do it

but don’t you have a fit bit you ask?

yes

yes i do.

i bought it a couple of years ago…and it still works perfectly fine

but lately our relationship has changed

i am not sure why but it has

twice now
i have had a pretty serious injury from this fit bit

no – nothing life threatening

just a little painful

i have the fitbit “one”

i tuck it neatly in to my bra and go about my day

twice now, when i get home and get undressed
somehow the skin on my boob comes off with the bra – attached to the “one”
(oh god the pain!!!!!!!!!)

i have a scar from the first time
and a nice red scab currently from this last time

i bought the “one”
because i could wear it and no one could see it
it was discreet
but now
now
she’s not the one

no one messes with the girls
and gets away with it!

the charge should be here in a few days

i feel like a kid waiting for Christmas:)

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what love looks like

it looks like this

(please don’t look if you are dying for something delicious and sweet)

 

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my birthday is soonish
and someone that i care about
and love

went out of her way
to make me a tiramisu cake – with her own two hands
wrap it up with her love
and Purolate it to me at work!

this cake made a 5-6 hour trip
just to end up in my tummy
(and who are we kidding, my ass and my thighs)

along with the cake came a beautiful card

and i gotta tell you

for a moment i felt like the most loved girl
in the world

and who knows

maybe in that moment i was

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only me

so i gave my body two full days of rest
and decided to test out these legs of mine on day 3

i decided i would walk to a restaurant where i was meeting friends for dinner
it was only 2.5 km’s away
if i was in pain, i could always get a lift home

i am happy to say
no pain at all. i was able to put in two good walks over the weekend
so i have no idea what those shin splints were about

crazy time has started at work again
and i am trying to find ways to keep moving
that’s hard when you have a desk job
and work 12-14-16 hours a day

today i left the house at 6
by the time i got in and changed and ready to relax it was after 9pm
where do i find the motivation to work out
when i just want to stop drop and roll?

but this is the reality of my life
about a week of normalcy and then 3 weeks of utter craziness

it’s just my new normal
and won’t change until they hire someone to help pick up the extra load

i may be wonder woman
but i can’t do this much longer
it’s exhausting, and i have no time to myself. to take care of myself etc

january cannot come soon enough

and now for the TMI portion of the evening

my fitbit is trying to kill me

i have the fitbit one
and it clips nicely and discreetly to my bra
i just put it in the centre and off i go

i guess the other day
i tucked it in more to the left side
snug as a bug
lol

when i got home that night
and got undressed
i felt something wet on my leg

it was blood

not sure what happened
but i think the placement of the fitbit
caused a HUGE blister
smack dab on one of the girls
and when i whipped off the bra
apparently i ripped off the skin
a lot of it

and that’s the story of my fitbit trying to kill me

this is no surprise
if anything weird can happen to me
it will

and it did

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injured

yup
it’s true

i’m an injured bee

i am not sure what happened
but an old injury has decided to come up and bite me in the ass

if you have read my blog
you will know
that i quit running after i got hit by a car
(actually a couple of cars but whose counting)

so many years later i picked up running again
to find myself far away from home
with debilitating pain in my shins

shin splints

they are not for the weak

so i researched how to treat this and was doing well
and then i sprained my ankle and was out of commission for a good year – no joke

since the weather has been unusually nice in my parts
i have been loving getting outdoors for long walks

at first my shins would hurt for the first 10-15 min
and then the pain would disappear
the other night i did a 5k – at a slower pace than usual
because my shins hurt pretty much until i got back home

it was an excruciating walk

i wondered if it could be my shoes
but they are new – and i was fitted for them
so it can’t be that

i guess this old injury has reared it’s nasty head
and that my friends
makes for a very sad bee.

they don’t hurt at all when i am walking casually
it’s just when i pick up my pace
and any slight incline is enough to make me cry

they recommend
not walking for 6-8 WEEKS!
WHAT!!!!!

i cannot do that
but if i don’t do that – i apparently will make it worse
so what am i to do?

my body is literally itching
to get my runners on and go go go
but i don’t know if i should

and really why bother
if i can only go at a normal non sweaty pace?

*insert big fat dramatic sigh here*

it really sucks
because i am going away in a month
and i figured – another month of exercising
may help me drop a couple of pounds
and make me feel a little bit more comfortable in my skin

oh well

i might throw in a Shaun T work out
and see how my legs handle that

woe is me

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